random thoughts 001

today i watched transformers 2. not in the cinema btw and i confess that i slept halfway into the story. then i woke up 10 minutes before it ends and wtf the robots fought each other till the end of the dvd. no wonder i fell asleep then, 2 hours of continuous screeching metals and screaming tires wtf. and megan fox's hotness can't redeem the worth of this movie. yea i know partly because of he clubbed thumbs wtf that is a major turn-off for me.

well clubbed thumbs or not, if you google hard enough, you can find pictures of her wearing only nip-guard. wtf ONLY NIP GUARD. no pictures here I'm trying not to be a pervert lol.

just forget about my previous post. i rarely post in anger. when i do, i realy mean it. and the 'this is my rant' warning is just to warn you readers that i need to release my anger to my blog, not YOU. if you find my post depressing and offensive, go and read something else at your pleasure. that post wasn't meant for you anyway.

on contrast, i am happy today. no worries whatsoever. and my work went on smoothly. i don't really care anymore as i think i need to value experience more than anything else. if there's any other offer, i will go. no need giving myself a big headache thinking about something I can't control.

since tomorrow is weekend i want to have a nice relaxing break at home.

a rant post

be warned that this is a rant post.

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i warned you enough... so...



I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB

not just the regular 'i hate my job because its boring' or other lame 'hate my 9 to 5 job' rants you see in typical stupid blogs that don't know how to differentiate between 'responsibility' and 'work'.

It's just that I REALLY HATE MY JOB.

oh noes. i don't hate my job.

i just FUCKIN HATE MY STUPID LAZY-MORON ASS BOSS!

just terminate me, idiot. i won't lose my fucking life just because im terminated from your stupid company.

Bumiputra Kelas-A kontraktor my ass
satu kulim kenal my ass
wants to be like ahmad zhaki and IJM my ass



bullshit

there are reasons why so many people quits from your company, idiot. and one most profound reason is YOU.

now you can talk cock in front of us. someday someone will bash your lazy ass without mercy.

and it's your fault your company got terminated from the project. IN YOUR FACE, SCUM!

wait till my contract is over. i will bash your stupidity here. and i will tell the readers of my blog what knd of company you own.

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OK.

enough ranting. -back to job hunting-

Browser-centric OS

As the title suggests, does browser centric OS be the future of computing? This piece was written because of this announcement:
http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2009/07/introducing-google-chrome-os.html

their promises:
- Free lightweight OS for netbooks
- browser as the main application
- user-centric UI (speed and simplicity)
- better security
- compatibility across systems (x86, mac, arm etc)
- lightning fast startups

most of it have been on my mind for ages. for instance, fast startups. why should we wait (or rather, 'waste') 15-30 seconds of our life waiting for bootup, just to check our email? cant we just push the power button and instantly read our email? drivers can load later imho.

to take browser into the heart of an OS is not a new idea. remember netscape and its similar idea? a decade ago? even MS tried to integrate IE into windows, but they faced antitrust charges (remember ActiveDesktop?). Google's idea is nothing new of sort, but with more widespread broadband access across the world, it's now viable and usable, when compared to ancient ages of dial-up during the netscape time.

and security promises, we certainly hope that Chrome OScan live up to its expectation. we certainly know the limitation on how an OS can secure its users (well, most of the users don't. lol!). majority of security compromise can be avoided if the users use a bit of thinking when they want to submit their private informations online. so let's see how Chrome can beat OpenBSD in terms of security (they might as well use OpenBSD kernel instead of Linux =b)

only less than 24 hours from the announcement and people are already speculating. let's hope that this will be another milestone product from google.

well, here's a gift for you, another windows-bashing comic. enjoy =D


http://xkcd.com/529/

get well soon sis!

to kakak,

sorry to hear the bad news. we certainly hope that you will get well real soon. don't worry too much because our prayers are with you and we hope your dengue fever is not serious.

nyamuk jahat!

mama, ayah and adik2 certainly missed your presence and are looking forward to your arrival this coming august, my dear sis. so promise me you will get well soon ok?

he he, she's one great adik whom i called kakak since kecik lol. imagine when we both talk to each other, 'kakak' and 'abang' huhuhu.

ps - bila boleh buat surat MC nih? tak larat nak beli dari klinik lah. mahal mintak hang buat free ar nnt. kira setel utang =D

from your beloved abang

celcom totally suck this week

i used to connect to the internet using my PDAphone as a modem. however, this phone will become scorching hot and its battery life is getting worse every day.

so i decided, its time to buy a dedicated 3g modem. and its kinda cheap right now, just over rm150, compared to rm399 months ago.

so i bought one last week, and happily plugged it in my PC. speed was good, at least comparable to my PDAphone, until last friday.

see for yourself:

wtf HSDPA with this kind of speed? not even 5KBps!

dear celcom. if you want to sell this kind of service, dont name it celcom broadband. name it celcom dialup or anything other than broadband/3G/HSDPA.

and this is not my 3g modem's fault as i tested my subscription with my PDAphone and it's just the same (<5kbps)

dont make me switch to winet or other providers. once i switch, i will never go back. and i will make sure everyone around me knows how bad your service is.

the grandiose of having the intent of making things happen

this world spins with only one rule: uncertainty.

and yet, we plan.

and plan.

and plan.

And it becomes a necessity to plan just to control those uncertainties. Unfortunately, it's always the other way around. In the end, GOD determines our life.

We plan, He determines. (kita merancang, Allah menentukan)

While planning, we may forget that All-Powerful is the the one who plan for us earlier. And sometimes, we plan arrogantly, telling people that this will work, this is going to happen, things are so predictable and no problems are expected, and worst, telling people that your plan is going to work no matter what.

In short, arrogance.

And unexpected things will hit you at times like this. You will suffer. All your supposedly great plans will vanish into thin air. Your dreams shatter. And destiny shows you no mercy at all.

and you realize, no matter how much you try to control your life, there will always be a twist of plot for you.

Don't worry, those are necessary lessons of life. Never regret your life at all.

Having intentions of making your dreams realized already proved that you're a champion at challenging life, not a sore loser who sulks at his mediocre lowlife (no matter how grand he lives).

have a good day =)

oh ya, this is an apology postt, as i promised b =)

Between different views and conflicting interest

when talking about views and interest, one might wonder, are there any connection between those two? 'view' here is taken from the context of your paradigm, outlook and vision to an issue or an individual. many would say 'most' of our views are clouded by our interest, as we are, subconciously, a narcissistic creature. when we look into something, no matter how far reaching it is, subconciously we think of what's in it that might affect us, either positively or negatively.

this is by far, how our brain works. we live in our own sphere of life. and we try to connect our sphere to others', while maintaining our own. this social instinct is hardwired into us by Allah as a mean to protect ourselves, family, religion, race, aspiration, political ideology and many more.

however, most of the time, this mechanism can be very annoying to people around you. and sadly, this is how people in Malaysia reacts when it comes to politics.

i can say, the people around me can be divided into four groups, politically. Pro government, pro PR, indifferent group and critical group. the first two are really a bunch of annoying people. they don't allow critical thoughts that provoke their skeptical minds seep through their brain and trigger their thinking switches.

let me take an example. a BN leader is convicted with corruption. immediately the response from pro PR bloggers are BN korap, UMNO rasuah, UMNO itu ini, wihout any hesitation. this generalisation of people is culturally repressive and does not promote development of quality thinking. another example, when a PAS state representative is having a marital problem involving his second wife, immediately the response are pemimpin PAS mempergunakan agama, berpolitik atas pentas agama especially from pro BN bloggers.

and all those name callings - YB BABI, Najis, mamakdey, muka sembap, and many more are just nauseating and plain disgusting. if you want to comment, dear readers of politic blogs, do it intelligently and give comments that add values. not comments that insults your own intelligence. if you want to post hu-ha comments, do it on a private blog, please. this is simply saddening. our political attitude is simply not showing signs of maturity, although at some point, we do realise that government is not all angels and PR is not all devils, and we don't really take mainstream news for granted.

anyway, good luck malaysia. may the best be with us the loyal citizens of Malaysia, no matter who the government is.

what the *beep*!

was hopping around the net for regular visits on usual sites.

but...


anyone willing to explain why they close down this site?


owh *beep*

this is the most important resource for me on the net. why the hell they close it down?

not in a good mood now.

-down-

a good, deserving win

barca 2-0 manyoo.

such an astonishing performance from the catalan club would be an understatement of their effort tonight. heaps of praises should go to iniesta for his superb performance controlling the midfield. etoo and messi for their finishing. and efforts from henry, xavi, puyol.

and where the f*** is ronaldo? greatest footballer my a**. losing his pace against carlos puyol is one thing, but losing his cool against his opponent? seeing what he has done to puyol, i really think the fans should rethink about all the hype that has been given to him. all he played tonight was anything but football. period. and he has not been influential tonight. not enough to justify all the credits he had been given.

pep guardiola should be given proper credit to the team's win tonight. after all, barcelona really played as a team, with all those fluid passes, slick through passes and effective runs that outclassed the supposedly epl champions.

come to think of it, is epl THAT competitive? or is it just another hype? or is it just that la liga is so much better than epl?

you decide. =)



henry and messi:


ni lol:



pep guardiola, one of few men who won champs league both as player and manager:

crazy A319 takeoff

credit to http://flyfreakmatter.blogspot.com/2009/05/ter-kench-or-ter-berry.html

sorry to the blog owner if she felt that merely re-post that video is lame.

mahu tahu apa perasaan nek kapal terbang dengan sekor pilot sewel?



luls!

Love Story

cuti yang bosan. btw pek, semlm aku bwk mel g makan2. hahahahah. mel cengal dol. skang dia petikel kat kulim. abeda.

on another note, nice la plak lagu nih.



Love Story
Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, let's leave this town for a little while
Oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me they're tryna tell me how to feel
this love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I'll keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

confession

ini adalah post pengakuan. kalau rasa masalah korang sendiri dah terlampau banyak, dinasihatkan jangan baca. kang pening kepala korang. ahah.

and i warn you, this post will sound a bit cheeky, bold and seems aggressively arrogant. luls. and maybe, to ambitious.

dah warning dah, so pandai2 la korang. jangan pas baca komen2 pelik2 plak ahah.

kamu tahu apa cita cita aku dari kecik? masa umur 7 tahun rasanya, aku join rombongan nganto nenek sedara pegi haji. kat bayan lepas, pulau pinang. masa tu meriah. macam pasar malam kat situ. hampar tikar, berkelah ramai2. seronoknya. tapi kamu tahu apa yang paling menyeronokkan dalam kepala hotak 7 tahun aku masa tu?

tengok Boeing 747 teksi kat runway (when a plane is moving around an airport, we call it taxiing) luls.


a Boeing 747-400 taxiing on a runway. What a beauty.

fuh. aku tengok gergasi betui kapalterbang. macam mana dia bulih terbang nih? musykil aku. tapi memandangkan masa tu internet pun takdak lagi kat malaysia rasanya, so aku tokleh nak google hahahahah. tapi dalam hati aku dah pasang niat kuat-kuat "AKU NAK JADIK PILOT SATU HARI NANTI". bijak kan palotak aku masa tu? macam mana la aku bulih tau kapal terbang tu ade 2 ekor manusia bawak. ahahah. tapi aku tanya gak la bapak aku sapa yang pakai peak caps + epaulette + kot yang ader stripe kat lengan + tie itam. oh sungguh kacaklah jika aku dapat pakai. kan kan kan? uniform pilot tuh ahah.


:D

so sampailah sekolah menengah cita-cita aku macam tu. and i deserve having such a high ambition, because i was in an "elite school" lah kononnya. ahahah. talking about produk gagal :b

after school, i have a few choices, go straight into MAS or SIA cadetship. I wouldn't remember if MARA was sponsoring pilot students back then (2004) and i just knew they did in 2007.


singapore girls? (SIA stewardess)


or malaysian girls? luls! (MAS stewardess)

however, to go to SIA cadetship, you need to have a bachelor's degree, which didn't have, so i was left with two choices: do my degree first or directly go into MAS cadetship.

and i did not pick he latter. you know why? SIA's fleet are mostly widebody, and cater for long haul journey, so when you first enter SIA as second/first officer, chances are, you will be assigned to any widebody aircraft, unlike MAS, where you will be assigned to a 737 or fokker 50 first (both are 'small' aircraft).

plus, having a degree AND a flying license will give you an edge over someone who doesn't, right? don't argue my shallow statement, but MOST of us will think that it's cooler to have both, isn't it? =b

and luckily for me, at that time, this *ehem* company is offering me a place to pursue an engineering degree in its private university. i said to myself "this is an opportunity!". i will finish my degree first, then go to SIA!

apparently, that's not the case for me. 2009 was the suwey year for me. first, SIA stopped taking Malaysian cadets. second, MAS stopped its cadetship programme. third, MARA also rumoured to sponsor the last batch of pilot cadets in May 2009. fourth, i had a tumor as big as my fist inside my guts. fifth, i was dumped by my girlfriend. oh, lari topik plak lol.

and now, to pursue my ambition would be an uphill task. where can i find 275k to pay for the course? sure, banks can give out loans, but where can i find collateral for the loans?

and if i did manage to find the money, would i pass the Class I Medical Examination to qualify for the course with this 'thing' inside my perut?

sekarang? redha sajalah. mungkin itu bukan yang terbaik untukku. mana tau kalau bawak nanti, eksiden, mati ramai2. bek aku tayah bawak. tak apelah, jadik construction man pun takdelah susah sangat. berbakti kat negara jugak. buat landasan ketapi letrik tuh. bangga seh. hins.

dah tak larat aku pendam rasa. menangis dalam hati pasal benda-benda macam ni yang sangat-sngat menyakitkan hati yang semua jadik tahun ni jugak. apa boleh buat. no pain, no gain.



skang kumpul model sajalah. malam-malam, main sorang2 dlm bilik cam budak-budak. wiu wiu wiu. hahahahah. pathetic kan? tak apa. se pathetic aku pun, tak kacau orang. susah aku sorang. senang aku sher dgn mak ayah. sedih aku nangis sorang. ketawa, ramai2. kang orang kata gila plak ketawa sorang2.

sejujurnya, aku kecewa dengan diri sendiri sebenarnya. aku boleh pergi lebih jauh. dan mendapat yang lebih baik. nak buat macam mana. takdir sudah macam tu. otak geliga macam mana pun, kalau Allah cakap takleh pi mana, duduk situ sajalah.

grievances over dead dreams may shed the light on a better reality. - ni quote aku sendiri.

doa sajalah.

bosan siak

kepada sesiapa berminat untuk menemani jejaka kesepian unuk makan-makan di mapley sambil bersembang pasal benda-benda merapu ataupun menyumpah seranah hidup yang tak best ataupun berkongsi pengalaman cinta ataupun mempunyai masalah cinta, sila tinggalkan pesanan di shoutbox.

kami berjanji tidak menghampakan anda.

luls.

have i stopped caring?

hobi baru. takdela baru sgt. hobby revisited ahah.

sapa-sapa tau area Bukit Mertajam/Penang yang ada jual toys mcm scaled down models of cars/bikes/planes? im looking for A346, A380, B738, 777-ER, 747-400 and if possible 747-800. bajet belakang kira. bkn nk beli sekaligus. sikit2 udeh.

kalo kat kl, if possible, ade delivery skali ah. aku keje 6 hari seminggu so takleh nk g merata-rata.

sori. tajuk takde kene mengena hahahahah. tertipu gak korg. anyhow, cuci mata sepam.

pix of A346 models:


these, i think is A343:



biggest passenger jet on service to date (Airbus A380, in case u dont know):


B738:


B777-ER:


B747-400:



nampak cam sama je kan semua? tak semua sama. ahahah. appreciate the beauty of the flying steel.

just a reminder that i have never given up on my dreams :b

perihal gembira dan menggembirakan

"bang kalid! pagi ni saya lewat sikit. abah pakai muto. saya kena bawak keta. satgi mesti jem kat pekan BM"

"ha. ok. aku cover hang sat. hang jangan mengulaq pulak"

biasalah bawak keta. ayah pun satu. habaq la awai2 nk pakai muto. boleh kuar awal sikit. nek muto, buleh cilok2. keta? bulih tu bulih, tapi tak sehebat honda wave mencilok ar.

sampai site, capai topi, pakai safety vest, terus jumpak site supervisor.

"sorilah bang. tadi kluaq pun sayup dah. hari kita nak buat apa kat site?"

"kita perabih buang ikat besi. esok panggil consultant, lusa boleh tuang kongkrit. tu pun kalau tak ujan. aku rasa hari ni sampai lusa tak hujan, insya allah. cepat kerja kita"

bagus la jugak kalau boleh abeh kerja ni cepat-cepat. banyak sangat masalah. serba tak kena.

"hari ni depa tak kacau?" - depa: main contractor. kacau: ligan progress. main contractor ni selalu kejar2 kitorang.padahal site mmg problem. haruslah terlewat sikit. nak buat macam mana. bukan bulih tutup suis ujan ka, banjir ka.

"hari ni tak berapa kacau" jawab bang kalid. slow je. "janji site jalan."

"baguslah. takdelah tensen sangat nak menjawab" aku cuba berseloroh.

"tu lah. susah betoi nak puaskan hati depa ni. asrap, aku nak pesan kat hang. hang muda lagi kan? umoq berapa?"

"20 lebeh" pendek je aku jawab.

"muda lagi. banyak lagi masa. bujang lagi kan?"

angguk kecik. ahah. segan lah pulak. macam tgh dengar nasihat tok guru la plak.

"selagi hang boleh gembirakan diri hang sendiri, pi la buat benda2 yang hang suka. kalau hang suka mengai, p mengai. kalau hang suka jalan2, p jalan merata. kalau hang suka mandi sungai, pi mandi sungai"

"er. awat?" aku kompius. tiba2 suruh p wat menda2 merapu pasaipa nih. ish.

"umoq hang muda, hang hidup, hang tak payah pikiaq pasal orang lagi. hang dengan urusan hang. tak kisah la hang nk duk senang ka susah ka, makan megi hari-hari ka, duk rumah kongsi ka, tu hang punya pasai. tanggungjawab takdak lagi"

"ooo..." pura pura paham.

"hang pikiaq balik, bila hang tua, hang tak boleh dah pikiaq pasai hang sorang saja. bini hang. anak hang. mak pak mentua hang. adik hang.adik ipaq lagi. hang dah bertanggungjawab atas kegembiraan depa ni nanti"

"ouh."

"hang nampak honda civic baru aku tu?" dia menjuihkan mulut ke arah keretanya. baru sangat.plate PHY. hujung tahun lepas agaknya.

"terus terang kat hang, kereta ni bukan aku hingin sangat pun nak pakai. ikut aku, pakai ex5 sudah. tak payah pikiaq2 sevis la, jem tengah pekan la, instolmen bulan2 la. pening kepala. aku beli ni pun, sebab bini aku. malu lah kereta lama, kereta kecik. anak-anak pun sama jugak"

"oooouuhhhhh." panjang sikit oh aku. paham la aku sbb apa dia merungut.

orang lelaki, generally speaking, muda-muda, korang hidup, korang nk happy2, semua atas kehendak korang sendiri. duduk rumah sewa dengan member sampai 10 orang serumah pun boleh je.

tapi bila semakin tua, jadi tanggungjawab pulak menggembirakan orang lain. isteri, anak-anak. kereta rumah. macam-macam lagi. kita bukan hidup untuk diri sendiri. tapi hidup untuk orang lain. agaknya, sebab tulah bang kalid suruh aku buat apa yang aku nak buat puas2 sementara masih berkesempatan. jangan bazirkan masa muda.

kesimpulannya? toksah la pikiaq sangat pasai orang len. xde pekdahnya. bek pikir psl diri sendiri tu. hepi ke tak tuh.

do something meningful to your life. its your life. not theirs. luls.