one word

16th August 2009.

so many words to say to describe it.

in the end, only one word can define it all...


...

ALHAMDULILLAH

hai. nama saya mat.

and this, my dear fren, is a response to this post:
http://piggytalking.wordpress.com/2009/01/15/kisah-pramuraga-terlampau/

nama saya mat (bukan nama sebenar). saya dilahirkan pada tahun 80-an. seluruh hidup saya dipenuhi suka dan duka, jerih dan payah, ketawa dan tangis. normal lah tu. macho-macho pon nanges gak. lapa masa baby. xleh nk tolong lah. yer saya ngaku saya baby yang macho. dan comel.

sepanjang pengajian saya di utp, saya lalui penuh kesabaran. kesilapan-kesilapan yang dilalui, seperti join luxor, hampir kantoi fyp 1, bermalas-malasan dalam coursework hingga dapat xsampai setengah, semuanya diambil sebagai pengajaran berharga. terdapat juga kejayaan-kejayaan yg diperolehi, seperti berjaya pergi ke kelas hari sabtu, berjaya mendapat F dalam semua matapelajaran dalam satu sem, berjaya mendapat status dismissal dengan GPA, CGPA 0.00, (er kejayaan ke tu?) dan jugak berjaya mendapat A dalam co-cu Drama n Theater II.

yer betul, saya mendapat Drama n Theater II.

yang diambil sewaktu berada di semester akhir.

pelik kan? memang pelik. jika kedudukan saya sebagai pelajar paling tua dalam kelas, dan lainnya hanyalah kanak2 hingusan belasan tahun, tentulah lebih pelik.

sangat sangat cool kan?

saya memang sengaja mengambil keputusan mengambil co-cu di final sem tatkala rakan2 sudah menghabiskannya di tahun pertama lagi. kenapa? saya ada sebab tersendiri. tatkala semua orang lebih selesa berada dalam kumpulan sendiri ketika dalam kelas, saya lebih selesa bersendirian dalam kuliah.

alasannya? kurang distraction. dan best tido. sbb takde orang kacau ngambik gambo ke apa ke.

dan juga mendapat ramai kenalan baru.

kuliah2 yang saya sertai sorang-sorang termasuklah tranportation engineering, highway engineering, engineering economics, engineering in society, operation and construction management.

dan akhir sekali, Drama n Theater II.

kelas pertama drama n teater, saya terpaksa ponteng. kerana? ingin bermalas malasan. bosan lah kalau mahu start awal kelas ni. lebih baik menikmati cuti sepuas puasnya. dan juga mahu bersedia menghadapi kelas seterusnya.

fuh alasan.

kelas pertama, tidak seperti dijangka. rupanya kelas kecil sahaja. hampir 20 orang. tidak mengapa. dilihat budak-budak ni tgh bersenam senaman, mulanya disangka silap kelas. tp ternampak Dr N. oh. pasti inilah kelasnya drama.

"is this drama n theater II?" dengan keyakinan saya bertanya kepada kelas tersebut.

"yes yes. come in." mesra sahutan Dr N.

lega. selepas selesai sesi senam senaman dan menolak nolak tenaga (korg takyah paham. ni istilah kelas drama kitorg lol) Dr N memberi amaran:
- kelas ni kelas budak2, so we may ask you to do stupid things which i might refuse to do since im in my final sem (matured lah konon)
- comply, or fail

hah hah. ape punya cabaran lah. saya jenis jantan pantang dicabar, lalu dengan lantang saya terus menyahut cabaran tersebut

"Occaaaayyyyyy!" dgn gaya haado gay (oke ini satu exaggaration)

"so wats your name?"

"mat"

simple. and concise. i knoe i got longer name. but i think mat suffice. i wasn't called by my other name by choice. that was the name given by my seniors at my alma mater.

besides, i wasnt lying. there IS Mohd in my name. lol.

i think none of my drama mates, even my lecturer doesn't know this, but i used to be an active drama/theater actor/director/stage director.

err apsal tiba2 aku tulih english nih. hahah.

sepanjang kelas drama tersebut saya telah mengenali lebih dekat mereka semua. ada yang kelakar. ada yang diam. ada yang skema. ada yang kuat stadi. ada yang kuat bersembang. ada yang kuat gelak (dis one is for u naila dear. hahah. dem)

bila sampai ke penghujung kelas, rasa agak sedih meninggalkan kelas tersebut. sayang rasanya. dalam kelas inilah saya boleh buat benda2 bodoh tanpa judgemnt dari kawan-kawan. boleh bergurau senda tanpa segan silu. boleh rasa berbangga sebab dah survive the uni for 5 freakin years (cewah). dan semua classmate sangat-sangat santai dan sporting.

paling penting sekali, hajat saya untuk dipanggil mat berhasil. alhamdulillah >_<

dan hasil paling best sekali? dapat A. wpon test kantoi with flying colours. berbaloi lah jadik orang tua dalam kelas drama. hak hak.

dis is me in my classmate's pix, saja kacau dia camwhoring after our final performance. sori yah naila lol.

tagged? oh first time aku rasa gedik nk wat

i was tagged by deng syncmaster. http://abedaa.blogspot.com/2009/01/tag-cabaran-sexy-boy.html

kinda feel like doing it heh heh.

kuli gerai berjaya.

raya kedua, kat kampung

altered, tgh men rubik. hak hak

ini gamba plg seksi. katang sungguh ya jejaka di sebelah aku nih

(btw, he's single)

n lastly, pegi bbq pakai kain pelikat. pecaya? xpecaya? siyeshit aku penah wat.

hambek:

btw, aku xusha chick kat depan tu ye. aku tgh tenung fruit salad tuh. nyum2.

sesuai dengan motto aku "perut lebih penting"



since i was tagged long ago, im doing everyone a favor by not tagging anyone.

result @utp

so this is my final result in UTP. the last one. interestingly it got both A and F! and both are for cocu subjects. lol!


dont worry, that F is for basic dance cocuriculum course, which I have withdrawn earlier for Drama and Theater II. Ironic as it seems, I got an A for that course.

hahah.

well, thats certainly not the first F i got in my life. I lied to everybody that ive never got an F throughout my years in UTP. In fact, I got F for the whole subjects taken in that particular semester. Want to see it? There you go:





Lol. and the bottom two subjects, Islamic Studies and thinking skills, I got D because of coursework marks. which is a total pity because I got the highest coursework mark or Thinking Skills for that semester. hahahah.

so there you go. Fs for my first and last semesters in UTP. LOL

* can you guess why i got Fs for the whole semester? I will post the answer later, if anyone is willing to guess in the comments section ;)

cleared

yes u read them right. my clearance form. my ultimate graduation proof. well, it may seem incomplete, but it's meant to be that way. both the exam n registration will only be certified once the result for this semester is out, in a month or so.

tomorrow i'll surrender my room's key to RC (residential college) office.

thus, i, Mohd Asyrafi Abd Halim, is officially an alumni of UTP and currently unemployed, now a liability to society, with all the subsidies and tax exemptions, medical fees, etc.

why bother? heck ive been studying for 10 years straight without a break (5yrs secondary school, and shortly after, 5 yrs of undergraduate). i dont mean study break, but a real break like really lepak2 and doing nothing to contribute to society. hahah.

kinda like it.

but i still miss her.

chow, gotta pack my things. going back home tomorrow =)

and this, my friend, is a goodbye post

my matric card. been using it for almost a year. my original went missing just after my internship. it doesn't matter. a credential proof of my status as a UTP student, this card has served me for a full 5 years. kinda sad parting with it. btw, i have to surrender it back to utp to be destroyed.

so many memories with it. sweet and bad ones.

no matter how i said i dislike utp, deep in my heart, there's always love for it. i used to wish that time turns faster so that i can graduate earlier, but these times, i only think of good times when i was here. things i regret doing. things i regret not doing. lessons of life i took from my experience being here.

and how i found love, hatred, friends, cliques, mates and foes.

thank you sayang. u taught me how to love unconditionally

thank you friends. u taught me how to treat people right.

thank you foes. for showing me my bad spots.

thank you utp. i owe you lessons of life.

thank you ESU. i owe you rm90k.

shit.

its 3am and i know its unusual to post an unusually long blog post at this time lol

just watched mr n mrs smith. hahahah. surprisingly this story is just like me n my gf. story of ego and hardheadedness. brutality in fights lol. but, when its sweet, only we know how sweet can it be. isnt it honey? :p

semester is ending. my undergraduate studies is ending. im counting days now. waiting for my clearance. turns out i still owe utp rm90 worth of fines. all three back in may 2007, even before my internship. and now have to wait for approval for fine reduction. for goodness sake rm 90 is worth more than a week's living cost here! i just hope i can get a reduction up to rm30-40

so this is it. might be my last post for my blog from utp (if i dont have the mood to write again these few days lol). here i want to dedicate some sayonara greetings to my some of special ones:

my one and only girlfriend, noor akmal:
thank you and sorry for everything, my girl. thanks for all the care. and letting me care for you. letting me share your problems whenever you need someone. letting me be a bad bf and still forgives me. and most importantly for letting me love you =)

i know our last days together in utp was certainly not the best times we had, but circumstances are not on our side, and i believe both of us understands it completely, though i must say im very disappointed =( if only i could turn back time b, if only i could.

i know we always had fights. over small things. and sometimes our fights are really hideous. well, most of the times. maybe that's our strength, really kan syg?

but remember the good times will you? those bunnies i sent to you every night. tha birthday song i sang to you on your birthday. my first present for you (the blue thing =) the kenduri with sedondon baju raya thing. the moment u gave me the bunny. the card u wrote to me spontaneously. and lastly, my next present for you. im sure ure going to be surprised. really2 surprised ;)

those are the things that really makes me miss you so much.

you are my baby. and will always be my baby =)

my beloved roommate, gaban:
i know this will sound gay, but he is certainly the best roommate i had. thank you for respecting my privacy. and though both of us never really talked to each other until recently, i still respect you.

tq sbb ajak makan. ajak g ipoh. bahan kimok sama2. usha jikku berkasih sayang bersama2. kena orbit pon sama2 hahah. sori sbb kincat ko pasal bazler eh. hahah. jgn amik siyes rumet. da 3 thn duk sama lol. pape pun best of luck yer rumet tersayang.

osmet kimok n jikku:
dulu jarang lepak sama. kos pon lain2. tp lepas intern selalu mkn sama. sori kimok bnyk bahan hang. takde lele, hang la mangsa. hahah jikku, cirit2 kasih sayang pon still xlupa osmet. cayalah asenel. hahah

bdk2 civil len:
thanx for these wonderful 4-5 years together. geng2 semsas. geng2 budu. geng2 lifuki n matle.dak2 pompuan yg siyesli aku tak kenal sgt pn b4 intern hahahah. x lupa ct haida. tengs for all the notes. i realy really really appreciate it syg (usop jgn marah haa =p) wish u guys all the best. nnt dah berkarier gaji 5figure jgn lupa member yer hehe

amy
tengs sbb jadik a very good girl friend. tq sbb not judgmental towards me. though i know u had this hostile thought of me, but i think even the meanest guy in this world would think twice, no, thrice, to do bad things to you simply because, well, you are too sweet. yeah i said it lol. you are sweet, not bajet sweet. hihi.

good luck in life. nnt nk buat nasik minyak jgn lupa jemput yer hahaha.

#helloproject:
ni cenel takleh lupa nih. the channel that lets me express myself without ppl being judgmental. thanx 4 everything. this is where i learn that virtual relations can be expressed in reality. thanx for all the maples and mekdis and kepsis.

n this is where i found my love too. hahaha.

gud lak everyone. yg blom grad tu semoga dapat score and secure a good job later

mazrep:
tq sbb jadik kwn yg bek. aku ade problem leh cite kat ko.

aku konpes aku x gay sekian.

mekaseh jadik rakan lepak aku masa kat klcc dulu. aku tau ak ni membosankan. dahla mulut laser xde insuran. tahan gak telinga ko tuh ye. agaknya dah bese kene tala ngan munir kot hahah.

kN:
tq for helping me hooking up with chunk. and well, for breaking us apart once =b i know u only think the best for both of us. and i know i was stupid at that time. well, i still think of you as a special friend. not far enough to be a stranger, and not close enough to be too personal to each other. thus the status lets us share our problems without guilt or feeling hostile.

#natto
frankly i dont know why i joined this channel in the first place. im from the 2nd generation. the time when yatie was still with ash. and mazrep, munir was still unheard of in this channel. i enjoyed each and every outings i have with u guys. thank you very much for pretty much everything =)

syncmaster
sori terhutang lama sikit duit mum. nk wat camne im in financial trouble and i know i was at fault.mayb i spent too much. bkn xmo baya utang, im trying my best. jgn sbb hutang putus kawan. aku tau ade lg baki hutang n believe me, im working on it.

and just in case youre wondering, i paid it using my own money. not hers ok.

freestylers
tq sbb bg aku peluang masuk circle korg. stat dr v2 lg. mekaseh sbb aja aku cane nk paham kecek klate. n ganu. hahah.

tq for the great bbq yesterday. it was awesome.

picisan
not much to say, tp tq jelah for the evening exercise kat padang v4 hahah

#linux
nice staying there, though i dont use linux regularly. even for the servers, i use BSD. haha. but it doesnt matter as long as we're in the *NIX family =b

dc++ team
tq for the bans, recommendations, help etc2x. i really appreciate it. its been a year since i take over this hub, and its been a great pleasure serving utp students

i guess thats all for now. utp will always be in my heart. and i ranked it as my number two, after kys for my favourite place =) thanx everyone around me. directly or indirectly involved in my life - pacik macik gad, pak ali, tokei2 kafe len, brader koept, akak kopet, semoga dapat baby comel nnt yer hehe, macik cleaner, brader itm ass, staf2 n lecerer.

bye bye utp. sayounara.

Raya dinner

last night i went to hari raya dinner with civil dept.

I have no complains on this event, except that there's simply too little food last night! Its just not worth the rm25 we have to pay. Id rather go to muven peak and go eat all i want. lucky i didnt fast that day or i'll be hungry the whole event!

Otherwise the event was a success,i must say. The not so nice part is,wen our batch's farewell video was played.not that its a sad moment for us, but the picture of me that they used.damn im hairy at the time.long haired and bearded, with moustache. Goddamnit, at least ask me for photos! Dont just take it from my fs for goodness sake! *sigh* Whatever.everybody laughed at it.nvm,ill just take it as a compliment,though.

moi fyp (read: my miserable fyp)

Waiting sucks.im at the offshore lab waiting for my labmate to bring a few important stuffs for my fyp (final year project).ims stuck here, my project stalled and i havent seen my sv for ages,the last time being him trashing my supposedly dissertation a.k.a final report.i dont mind,sir as long as you passed me in my wrecking project.

I know whining wont solve anything, but as far as im concerned,my fyp sucks.who cares about the pipelines lying in the ocean anyway?certainly not you.sigh.no use ranting about this and that about my project.ive taken it,so i must be responsible for it.

Lets hope i can finish this miserable project a.s.a.p.its already killing me.

utp network n me =)

Who am I in utp?im no one.im just a final year student waiting for a few more weeks to finish my studies and go out into the working world.am I just going to be just another undergraduate from utp?does my existence here gives no impact to others?

Well,I guess so.

As for now I want to talk about network in utp.am I qualified to talk about it?lets see who am I really.

Currently im the maintainer and owner of v5 dc++ hub.I am also the fifth admin and the second root admin of kampung5.I prepared and maintained the k5 imagehosting,which is used extensively by cameraphiles in utp.I am also the owner of the temp irc network,when soul.utpchat.net isn't available.

Still not enough?I provide fedora and ubuntu software repository for village5.active member of UTPOSSA,but not anymore since im busy with everything else.

Ok.done with that.that is my history.kinda boring isn't it?im going to graduate anyway.

Im not going to blabber much about myself.I want to talk about OUR network.yes u heard me.OUR very own utp network.

I've been here since 2004.my first encounter of student network services is with utpchat.net.there used to be one single server connecting users throughout v1-v4 (v5 doesn't even exist that time,n v1 n v2 only got internet access in late 2004).user counts averaging 1000+ users at any time given.

my first favourite mirc channel?its gotta be #bingseng.what is #bingseng?if utpchat is a breathing animal,bingseng is its heart.bingseng is among the first channel that promotes the usage of utp network as a sharing medium.its main attraction?mp3 files.some of us might still remembr @find bla3,dir,ls,/ctcp bla3 and many more mirc commands to grab files from fservs.

That was a long long time ago.from this filesharing activities,people learn to socialize and form interest groups in private channels.prominent examples are #helloproject,#linux,#unipet etc.

And then,there's GV.

What is GV?GrapeVine.utp forum.much like our current k5.but with stricter mods+hardcore writers who love to flame one another.and can be accessed throughout utp.there,I only love reading.I don't post much,partly because of the fear of being ridiculed by mods n other regular writers over there.

Students living in that era will remember the otais back then.effi,snubby,genjo,mangifera,yayi n a few others.

I wasn't popular in both services.just because im still young at that time compared to seasoned seniors.and im not interested in this politics.im happy as long as I can get my latest mp3s and vclips.

And then something happened.utp network was sliced into pieces.each village with their own network.new ip schemes introduced.they used to be 160.xxx.xxx.xxx.now we r separated.the first service to suffer was grapevine.n then mirc.

The server was located in v3/v4 but most of the regular GV writers live in v5.and during the early separation process,mirc network only limited to each village.n then there was novell login.do u still remember your novell login id?

I still do.

So what happened after that?the opers tried to restore connectivity between villages by connecting village servers to one another by using proxies.but situation changed rapidly.most juniors never bothered about mirc n gv.year fter year,it becomes worsened.then there came kampung5.originally intended as temporary gv replacement,k5 popularity grows as it gained attention from ex gv users in v5.most of gv users are disappointed with the move of gv to outside server.the slow page loading of gv makes k5 a superior choice bcos of its location in V5.

And then there is this server called dc++.started by ahca@helloproject,I was one of the experimental team for the dchub server.more or less,the popularity of dc++ hub grows each day as it follows the web2.0 definition.what is web2.0?traditional internet are passive internet whereby users login, get something and then logout.web2.0 extends more than that.it lets users participate,contribute,share and do much more with the internet.

This is what dc++ is for.participation from the users,compared to trditional filesharing under mIRC,makes dc++ a better choice for filesharers.

Although the importance of mirc decreases day by day,the legacy still continues.we can say that less than 300 active users of mirc still exists but its presence is still needed,as long as the people are there

I still hope that despite the tremendous pressure from network condition of utp,itms and the users themselves, that 10 years from now,I still can see utpchat.net and dc++ is still here in utp,and I can say proudly that im part of it long ago.

So what does the future has to offer to the new generation of utp students?the answer really lies in the hands of the students themselves.they can choose to support the communication method as it is right now or dump it for something new and fresh.I just don't want to see the so-called modern messengers like gtalk/ym/msn replace the functionality of mirc networks.yes,indeed mirc has been around in decades,but its not outdated at all.I hope that all the juniors would understand this and start to embrace the mirc once again and bring back the golden era of utp network.

great great time

last night was my drama class. yea i suck for taking drama for my co-cu this semester. there are much 'cooler' cocu i can take like sports science, etc2x, but since this co-cu subject already suck, i guess getting into this artsy thing is not a worst thing to do.

had a great time, actually, i must admit. it's been awhile since i last taken non-maths class. doing facial expressions while not having any emotions attached to it, priceless. I even scared the poop out of my classmate for my angry expression LOL.

however, this Drama Queen in our class really annoys me. She needs to learn that in order to get through the class, you have to keep the lecturer happy. her reluctancy to show facial expressions really annoys us all. it's not that i love this drama class. i hate it. totally. but i know i had to keep the instructor happy, so we can go home early, and happily. This Drama Queen keep saying i cant icant icant like its some kind of evil sin to do it.and that dragged the whole class down. damn it.

and yesterday, i just knew how it feels like after months and years of patience and waiting. and it pays back. it really feels good!. like you 0wn3d the world! tq darling... i will not waste my chances. not anymore :)