@home, bored to death

people say doing nothing for such a long time will shrink your brain.

exactly.

i really feel like my brain is just a bit bigger than a walnut. it became something lazy. lazy to think for me. lazy to memorise for me. lazy to decide for me.

does this count as brain dead?

well, looking at a positive light, i'm not really doing nothing. i did submit the replacement teacher application form just now. i did follow up with my Master's application in UTP this morning. and i drove my granny's sister to the hospital today. and i did go to a 'kenduri' as well. and at 6pm, i accompany my mum doing some shopping. oh, almost forgot that today i apply for celcom unlimited broadband.

nice eh?

so im kinda tired now. well, those things i did justify why my brain is lazy right now. its just tired. he2. and now im writing this blog pulak. pity him.

any how, ive written several times for this blog via my pdaphone, but when i post it, its just gone. pissed off, i decided not to rewrite it. or for that matter, i will never write my blog using the handset anymore.

darn it.

btw i never get tired of missing her. sigh. when are we going to see each other b?

so thats all for now, my update for this, er, week? laters

a week later

today i drive my granny's sister for her regular med checkup.

i checked my email yesterday, and the lecturer i proposed for my postgrad research gives me a nod for my proposal.now i have to get my department head to recommend my name. i hope this will go well, and i can be in utp for another year or two.or maybe i can just quit and be an engineer :b

watever it is,pray for my success eyh :)

@kl

finally! got my SPM n PMR certs! i know it's kinda late, it's been 5 years since i last stepped onto the KYS compound. I was dumbfounded. Really really really dumbfounded. KYS has changed so much! No more rubber and palm estate around it. So many developments around the area. I think they're building bungalows there. lol.

Now I really feel Im getting older.

Mr Tan Cheh Li, my favourite Add Maths teacher is going to be the Academic Manager. Kak Lijah, my favourite admin secretary no longer works there. the synthetic field is no longer used. and the list goes on.

those things make me think, have i changed too? a lot? a little? i think maybe i am. for the better or not, im not really sure, but i think i'm more realistic now. not setting my goals higher than what i used to. maybe a bit mature, but i cannot deny that my social skills are waning as time goes by.

on a positive note, that might be a sign for me to change something in my life. Which I'm doing right now. transition from student to a career life.

wish me all the best my dearest friends =)

a week after

A week after.nothing much changed.im still jobless.spent 3 days for iduladha.after that went for dental check up.need to remove my wisdom tooth.what a pity.also,i helped the renovation of my parent's house in SP.next?i dont know.tomorrow i might go to 'pejabat pendidikan' to apply for temp teaching job.if time permits,i may look for any construction office and try handing out my resume.

But i really want a job in petronas!god help me.i hope they will call for interviews and i'll be recommended for OPUs.

I came across one article about mukhriz mahathir a few days ago.he had been labeled 'racist' just because he suggests that we should abolish vernacular schools and replace them with national schools.this is sick.no,not the suggestion,but the racist label.which one is more 'racist'?trying to unify people through one school system or supporting racial polarization by allowing each race with its own school system?

It's up to us to decide.in my opinion one national school system is not impossible,and the unifying effect will benefit everyone.

Although racism will always be there,but being conservative will not help much.the solution is,open up our mind and be more receptive to changes instead of opposing it.

So here's my to do list after graduation:
Grab an effin job! Doesnt matter wat, maybe temp, maybe permanent, i dont really care.mb temp teacher will suffice
Get celcom broadband 68 package,without the contract.
Diet!diet!diet!
Settle clearance @ utp
Settle fyp claims
Dental checkup - need to remove my wisdom tooth

@home

just got back from dental appointment. i have toothache for a few days now. i thought my teeth would fall out because i have a few sleepless nights because of it. but its only a gum lesion. idont know what exactly happen inside there, but at least, that's what the dentist told me.

now im on celcom broadband, the prepaid one. turns out, the coverage over here in Kulim is VERY EXCELLENT. hooked it up to my father's laptop and voila! im online!

the price is a bit steep, rm6 per24 hrs (promotion till end of year), but still, better than rm2 per use at the cybercafe =D

thats all for now, my parents are home.tq

cleared

yes u read them right. my clearance form. my ultimate graduation proof. well, it may seem incomplete, but it's meant to be that way. both the exam n registration will only be certified once the result for this semester is out, in a month or so.

tomorrow i'll surrender my room's key to RC (residential college) office.

thus, i, Mohd Asyrafi Abd Halim, is officially an alumni of UTP and currently unemployed, now a liability to society, with all the subsidies and tax exemptions, medical fees, etc.

why bother? heck ive been studying for 10 years straight without a break (5yrs secondary school, and shortly after, 5 yrs of undergraduate). i dont mean study break, but a real break like really lepak2 and doing nothing to contribute to society. hahah.

kinda like it.

but i still miss her.

chow, gotta pack my things. going back home tomorrow =)

using my handphone...

this is a test post. im now using my pdaphone to create this post.kinda weird but i think i better get used to it.

i started playing SPORE last night and damn im already ketagih playing it.

and this, my friend, is a goodbye post

my matric card. been using it for almost a year. my original went missing just after my internship. it doesn't matter. a credential proof of my status as a UTP student, this card has served me for a full 5 years. kinda sad parting with it. btw, i have to surrender it back to utp to be destroyed.

so many memories with it. sweet and bad ones.

no matter how i said i dislike utp, deep in my heart, there's always love for it. i used to wish that time turns faster so that i can graduate earlier, but these times, i only think of good times when i was here. things i regret doing. things i regret not doing. lessons of life i took from my experience being here.

and how i found love, hatred, friends, cliques, mates and foes.

thank you sayang. u taught me how to love unconditionally

thank you friends. u taught me how to treat people right.

thank you foes. for showing me my bad spots.

thank you utp. i owe you lessons of life.

thank you ESU. i owe you rm90k.

shit.

pizza karaoke and a broken handset

just now went to pizza hut batu gajah with my roommate + housemate. ordered quite a lot of food. n then went for karaoke session. for us 1 hour of karaoke is more than enough lol.

btw i got a call from an amoi just now. its regarding my handset. she said the cost to repair is rm280 an it will take them 10 days to repair it. what the effing hell is that supposed to mean? u take 10 days to replace lcd of one stupid pdaphone? are they stupid or just plain lazy? i shouted angrily, trying to negotiate for earlier deadline for the phone, but to no avail. idont care about the cost, i just want my phone to be normal again!

anyone with disappointing set of dopod 838 pro (its a hermes btw)? care to share? where to find a decent repair shop in the northern part? or for that matters, an official retailer for this stpid phone im having in these areas? penang would be good enough.

i googled about this handset and found out that its touchscreen lcd is problematic. any experienced users care to share?

first rank in google search keyword:

try this keywords:
grapevine utp
utp kampung5
ibnuhalim.blogspot.com (of course! lol)

and surprisingly, someone tagged my post in malaysiapop? lol. dont ask me what site is it. i was as clueless as you are right now.

the tag: http://malaysiapop.com/PoliticalNews/liwat_liwat_liwat_gay_kah_malaysia
the post: http://ibnuhalim.blogspot.com/2008/08/liwat-liwat-liwat-gay-kah-malaysia.html

and further googling, shows that Ropi is apparently an 18-yo hungarian blogger obessed with Palotás (too lazy to google). since he's a dude, i refuse to further google my name.

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* This code is in javascript. I'm using AJAX for my curent project. tq.

Latest me >_<

my latest pic. lol.
venue : v6
activity : freestyle bbq

cool mr president, very very cool!

Obama, is that Pacman vs Apple on your macbook? then i vote you as the most awesome president of united states of america!

cool eih =)

taken from http://isohunt.com/

48 hours without a handset (and counting)

its been 48 hours since i sent my broken handset for repairs. called the shop yesterday. they told me to wait for another two days for the spare parts. getting nauseaus already, missing my dopod XOXO. i officially named my dopod as XOXO cos it resembles gossip girls handset lol. i know its kinda girly, but hey, i even named my hard drives comel ok? trying to make things look cute is not a crime. but trying to be cute is disastrous for a guy like me hahahaha.

im bored to death. cant text anyone. cant call anyone. even my sim doesnt have any contacts. everything is inside the phone. sigh. silly me not backing up the data in the first place. i just pray they leave the software alone and not reset the data inside. sigh. it'll be a pain in the ass grabbing back all the contacts in the phone.

so im stuck here waiting for kN to lend me her handset temporarily. where are you kN...

on a positive note, tomorrow is my mum's birthday. i pray for her health and prosperity. bought her a tudung as a present. i hope she'll like it.

its 3am and i know its unusual to post an unusually long blog post at this time lol

just watched mr n mrs smith. hahahah. surprisingly this story is just like me n my gf. story of ego and hardheadedness. brutality in fights lol. but, when its sweet, only we know how sweet can it be. isnt it honey? :p

semester is ending. my undergraduate studies is ending. im counting days now. waiting for my clearance. turns out i still owe utp rm90 worth of fines. all three back in may 2007, even before my internship. and now have to wait for approval for fine reduction. for goodness sake rm 90 is worth more than a week's living cost here! i just hope i can get a reduction up to rm30-40

so this is it. might be my last post for my blog from utp (if i dont have the mood to write again these few days lol). here i want to dedicate some sayonara greetings to my some of special ones:

my one and only girlfriend, noor akmal:
thank you and sorry for everything, my girl. thanks for all the care. and letting me care for you. letting me share your problems whenever you need someone. letting me be a bad bf and still forgives me. and most importantly for letting me love you =)

i know our last days together in utp was certainly not the best times we had, but circumstances are not on our side, and i believe both of us understands it completely, though i must say im very disappointed =( if only i could turn back time b, if only i could.

i know we always had fights. over small things. and sometimes our fights are really hideous. well, most of the times. maybe that's our strength, really kan syg?

but remember the good times will you? those bunnies i sent to you every night. tha birthday song i sang to you on your birthday. my first present for you (the blue thing =) the kenduri with sedondon baju raya thing. the moment u gave me the bunny. the card u wrote to me spontaneously. and lastly, my next present for you. im sure ure going to be surprised. really2 surprised ;)

those are the things that really makes me miss you so much.

you are my baby. and will always be my baby =)

my beloved roommate, gaban:
i know this will sound gay, but he is certainly the best roommate i had. thank you for respecting my privacy. and though both of us never really talked to each other until recently, i still respect you.

tq sbb ajak makan. ajak g ipoh. bahan kimok sama2. usha jikku berkasih sayang bersama2. kena orbit pon sama2 hahah. sori sbb kincat ko pasal bazler eh. hahah. jgn amik siyes rumet. da 3 thn duk sama lol. pape pun best of luck yer rumet tersayang.

osmet kimok n jikku:
dulu jarang lepak sama. kos pon lain2. tp lepas intern selalu mkn sama. sori kimok bnyk bahan hang. takde lele, hang la mangsa. hahah jikku, cirit2 kasih sayang pon still xlupa osmet. cayalah asenel. hahah

bdk2 civil len:
thanx for these wonderful 4-5 years together. geng2 semsas. geng2 budu. geng2 lifuki n matle.dak2 pompuan yg siyesli aku tak kenal sgt pn b4 intern hahahah. x lupa ct haida. tengs for all the notes. i realy really really appreciate it syg (usop jgn marah haa =p) wish u guys all the best. nnt dah berkarier gaji 5figure jgn lupa member yer hehe

amy
tengs sbb jadik a very good girl friend. tq sbb not judgmental towards me. though i know u had this hostile thought of me, but i think even the meanest guy in this world would think twice, no, thrice, to do bad things to you simply because, well, you are too sweet. yeah i said it lol. you are sweet, not bajet sweet. hihi.

good luck in life. nnt nk buat nasik minyak jgn lupa jemput yer hahaha.

#helloproject:
ni cenel takleh lupa nih. the channel that lets me express myself without ppl being judgmental. thanx 4 everything. this is where i learn that virtual relations can be expressed in reality. thanx for all the maples and mekdis and kepsis.

n this is where i found my love too. hahaha.

gud lak everyone. yg blom grad tu semoga dapat score and secure a good job later

mazrep:
tq sbb jadik kwn yg bek. aku ade problem leh cite kat ko.

aku konpes aku x gay sekian.

mekaseh jadik rakan lepak aku masa kat klcc dulu. aku tau ak ni membosankan. dahla mulut laser xde insuran. tahan gak telinga ko tuh ye. agaknya dah bese kene tala ngan munir kot hahah.

kN:
tq for helping me hooking up with chunk. and well, for breaking us apart once =b i know u only think the best for both of us. and i know i was stupid at that time. well, i still think of you as a special friend. not far enough to be a stranger, and not close enough to be too personal to each other. thus the status lets us share our problems without guilt or feeling hostile.

#natto
frankly i dont know why i joined this channel in the first place. im from the 2nd generation. the time when yatie was still with ash. and mazrep, munir was still unheard of in this channel. i enjoyed each and every outings i have with u guys. thank you very much for pretty much everything =)

syncmaster
sori terhutang lama sikit duit mum. nk wat camne im in financial trouble and i know i was at fault.mayb i spent too much. bkn xmo baya utang, im trying my best. jgn sbb hutang putus kawan. aku tau ade lg baki hutang n believe me, im working on it.

and just in case youre wondering, i paid it using my own money. not hers ok.

freestylers
tq sbb bg aku peluang masuk circle korg. stat dr v2 lg. mekaseh sbb aja aku cane nk paham kecek klate. n ganu. hahah.

tq for the great bbq yesterday. it was awesome.

picisan
not much to say, tp tq jelah for the evening exercise kat padang v4 hahah

#linux
nice staying there, though i dont use linux regularly. even for the servers, i use BSD. haha. but it doesnt matter as long as we're in the *NIX family =b

dc++ team
tq for the bans, recommendations, help etc2x. i really appreciate it. its been a year since i take over this hub, and its been a great pleasure serving utp students

i guess thats all for now. utp will always be in my heart. and i ranked it as my number two, after kys for my favourite place =) thanx everyone around me. directly or indirectly involved in my life - pacik macik gad, pak ali, tokei2 kafe len, brader koept, akak kopet, semoga dapat baby comel nnt yer hehe, macik cleaner, brader itm ass, staf2 n lecerer.

bye bye utp. sayounara.

about my relationship

how long?

1yr+. aniversary? nil. on off on off. the chase never ends. that's what makes it interesting. she really does know well how to play hide n seek. n when to ease off just when im about to give up.

kalau jiwang 24 jam seminggu 7 hari bosan lah. kan f00?

we certainly dont have the best love story, but certainly our story is not a classic one. both hard headed, both born with temper problems. and both have a big fat E that sticks out of our head (ego). and the fights? hahah. kalah laki bini.

but who knows how sweet can we be when we're not into fights :D

how does its started? (the relationship)

friend. enemy. friend. close friend. very close friend. er. how much closer can u get luls.

tgh cuti. texting. bosan. call. bosan. texting. call. n then kuar lirik lagu. n then kuar lirik2 kompesen. n then kompesen dah tak jadik lirik lagu dah. hahah.

is she/he the one? (so far..)

yes!


what u like most about him/her?

lets just say everything about her. well, except her temper. hahah.

wat i like the most? when i make her smile. sense of ego-feeding orgasmic pleasure when i can turn her frown into smile whenever she's down. nothing beats that.

best moment of us?

dapat kad + soft toy. berani dia bg soft toy kat aku ni?! grr dah la muka garang, xmacho bakk aa simpan soft toy hahah. tp first time dpt dr org. kinda agitated luls.

saddest moment of us?

im graduating. she has one more semester. we have 1 more week to be spent together. suddenly she fell sick. a really painful disease. she even refused to meet me because it's affecting her face and might leave a scar. after quite a lengthy comforting, i managed to get a nod for a last date. and god knows how devastated i am to see her fell sick like that. i would want to switch places with her if i could, but i just couldnt. but i know, 'berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul'. semoga cepat sembuh ye syg.

n the next day she went home, thus ending our relationship in utp abruptly, and starting our ldr. i wont be here anymore. sad sad sad

long distance? what gives you the trust to hold on a relationship?

im proud to say that we actually became closer during LDR. nothing tops the feeling of being back together after a long suffering separation :b and i trusted her with all my heart (kadang2 je jeles. stendet la tu. jeles tanda sayang, bkn tanda xpecaya hahahah)

bcos i know, she's not the fllirting type. she's the garang type. rawr! tah camne aku leh brani kompes aku pn tatau. hahah.

harap berkekalan. harap xde halangan orang tua. harap jodoh panjang. itu jela.

tips?

bila begadoh tu, dah tau sorang tu mmg temper, biar je dia. dalam 2 3 jam (worst case, sehari dua) cooldown blk ok la. jgn gatal2 g pujuk lak. lg teruk kene marah kang (applicable hanya kepada yg ade pasangan bad temper SAHAJA. len2 dulik hape aku nk pujuk2 lol)




ps - ye saya kompes sy kapel ngan adik member. ade masalah?

the hard truth

it sucks when you learnt about the hard truth. that when you think you are doing the best that you can, but the fact is, its not enough. when you know that your competition is from the most unexpected of all people. when you think you are the only one, but there will always be another guy doing better.

and when you know it at the time you don't expect it.

this is what happen when you know your beloved one contacted her ex, while not telling you at all. and knowing that he's doing very well. and better than you. the fact that this guy is getting married is not soothing at all. bravo, i never knew you and would never want to know you, but yet you really can make my life miserable.

and now it all really makes sense. that explains why suddenly the change of attitude. suddenly getting mad for asking when and where she's going. the 'i want to be single cus single rawks' attitude. the 'im independent so dont ask where the eff im going' replies that you get.

it sucks.

it sucks when you've felt that you have done everything to make her your girl, but nothing can satisfy her. money is never enough. love? bleargh. care? ew. appearance? not a bit. there will always be someone better than you.

i have a life. i have a dream. i have a lifelong passion to complete. im only 21 for gods sake! i am trying my best. i don't want to be a fucking lame engineer. it stinks when you have to do all the dirty works and be responsible for it while other people milking me out for their own luxury life.

i have my own plans.

so please, when you think im not the best for you, and i just can never be one, i really am trying to be one.

but remember, if you think im a desperate lover, please look up the facts that i am not one.

ps - i know is unethical. a grief sin, at its best, to look at chatlogs of other people. but its there, and its purely accidental. not that i look up for it. and that's the only way to know about the truth. the hard way, in fact.

it's gay, i know

its kinda gay when you write a blog about your feelings when, something as big as the first black president of United States was elected.

its kinda gay when you write a blog about your love life when people are talking about global economic depression.

its kinda gay when you write a blog about your boring life when everyone is looking out for the fall of US economy

its kinda gay when your write a blog about yourself when people dont really care about you anyway.

and i confess that my few last posts are gay posts. yucks.


hahah. but that's life. each and every one of us have their own sphere of life, of which they think of most of the time. their thoughts only spins around their own self, and rarely they really look into other people's sphere or into the bigger universe around them.

we cannot blame ourselves for it. we are naturally narcissist. our own self ego portrays who we are. some are successful just because they are able to assimilate with others' sphere of life and manipulate them. some prefer to call them manipulator or opprtunist, but i'd rather call them 'smart'.

ku ingin seperti dulu

ku ingin seperti dulu
bebas ke mana-mana
tidak perlu lapor diri kpd siapa2

ku ingin seperti dulu
bebas berkawan
tidak perlu berfikir tentang si dia

ku ingin seperti dulu
tiada siapa mengawal, tiada siapa menyoal
tiada siapa kisah, tiada siapa ambil tahu
tiada yang peduli, tiada yang ambil berat

sekarang semua itu sudah tiada
yang ada hanyalah hati yg perlu dijaga





tp ingatlah detik detik gembira
aku dan dia
tiada yg ambil peduli tentang kami
yang ada hanya kami dan dunia kami
'carefree' dan bebas
saling menghormati saling menyayangi

pertanyaan bkn utk siasatan
untuk mengambil berat tentang dia

pertanyaan bkn tanda cemburu
tanda aku ingat pada dia

pertanyaan bukan maksudnya marah
sekadar mahu tahu keadaan diri

masih mahu seperti dulu?
hidup tanpa aku?

benarlah 'you will not realise what you have till its gone'
seseorang xkan tahu menghargai sehingga kehilangan

mungkin bila aku tiada perasaan gembira itu akan ada

tapi ingatlah nnt

bilamana nnt kau perlukan seseorang utk mendengar luahan hati
pasti akan terasa kehilangannya

bilamana kau perlukan seseorang memujukmu ketika sedih
pasti akan terasa kehilangannya

bilamana kau perlukan seseorang menemanimu ketika kesunyian
pasti akan terasa kehilangannya

bilamana kau perlukan seseorang yang memberi bantuan tanpa mengharapkan apa-apa
pasti akan terasa kehilangannya

aku di sini. tetap menunggumu.

aku

Aku tau aku xpernah sempurna

Aku bkn anak seperti yang mama impikan
Bkn abang yang adik adikku harapkan
Bkn kekasih yg kekasihku idamkan
Bkn kawan yang sahabatku perlukan

Tp aku cuba jugak hepikn org lain

Entahlah.makin dekat, rasanya makin jauh hati ni. Kenapa perlu ada rasa kesian? Kesian itu boleh mengelirukan. Terlalu kecil sempadan kesian dengan sayang.

Entahlah. Aku xperlukan lebih. Xmintak lebih dari itu. Redha sajalah kerana aku bkn sempurna. Aku cuma mampu cuba menjadi sempurna. Dan bkn hak aku nk memaksa-maksa.

Tp aku bkn seorg selfish lover.dan aku xpeduli semua itu. Sekurang-kurangnya aku cuba.

Cuba menjadi yg terbaik utk dia, kamu dan mereka.

Raya dinner

last night i went to hari raya dinner with civil dept.

I have no complains on this event, except that there's simply too little food last night! Its just not worth the rm25 we have to pay. Id rather go to muven peak and go eat all i want. lucky i didnt fast that day or i'll be hungry the whole event!

Otherwise the event was a success,i must say. The not so nice part is,wen our batch's farewell video was played.not that its a sad moment for us, but the picture of me that they used.damn im hairy at the time.long haired and bearded, with moustache. Goddamnit, at least ask me for photos! Dont just take it from my fs for goodness sake! *sigh* Whatever.everybody laughed at it.nvm,ill just take it as a compliment,though.

moi fyp (read: my miserable fyp)

Waiting sucks.im at the offshore lab waiting for my labmate to bring a few important stuffs for my fyp (final year project).ims stuck here, my project stalled and i havent seen my sv for ages,the last time being him trashing my supposedly dissertation a.k.a final report.i dont mind,sir as long as you passed me in my wrecking project.

I know whining wont solve anything, but as far as im concerned,my fyp sucks.who cares about the pipelines lying in the ocean anyway?certainly not you.sigh.no use ranting about this and that about my project.ive taken it,so i must be responsible for it.

Lets hope i can finish this miserable project a.s.a.p.its already killing me.

mellow? effect of melon? ugh

never whisper words of love if the feeling is not true and never say i LOVE u when you really mean goodbye..never use your charm if you mean to break a heart and never look into the eyes if you will only lie!!

darn ive been mellow lately. reez dude! help me!

eh uve been mellow too. musim mengawan ke nih.

bye bye

bye bye arigato sayonara

ive been good. and ive been bad.
uve been good. and bad.

but i never regret a thing. enjoy yr life.

Bedul anak mak

Tidak dpt dinafikan bhw abdul adalah seorang anak mak.beliau dibesarkan dlm suasana kekeluargaan yg erat.pencapaian akademik beliau juga amat membanggakan.

Namun segalanya berubah ketika melangkah kaki ke universiti.beliau bkn lg seperti dahulu.tiada lg ms utk membuat panggilan telefon kepada ibunya.pulang ke rumah pun jarang2 sekali.jika bercuti, seboleh-bolehnya dia mahu tinggal di kolej kediaman.

kenapa ini berlaku?pdhal rumah beliau amat bes.hari2 mak beliau masak ayam goreng kegemaran beliau.sekali sekala merasa makan nasik beriyani.mungkin kebosanan duduk di rumah sepanjang hari.kalau di universiti boleh lah panjangkan kaki ke pusat bandar.xpon koman2 ke air terjun,pntai ataupn pusat2 perkelahan terdekat.

Bole juga berdeting dgn si dia hari2.itulah besnye mempunyai buah hati yg belaja sama2.

Suatu hari abdul merasakan kepentingan pulang ke rumah ibunya.dgn insaf dia pulang segera tnpa memberitahu ibunya akan niat murni beliau dgn hrpn dpt mmberi kejutan kepada kedua ibu bapanya.

Berbekalkan mp3 yg dipasang lagu berjudul Balik Kampung dendangan  allahyarham sudirman,beliau menaiki bas pulang ke kampungnya di Sungai Petani, Kedah.lagu tersebut tidak bukan untuk meniup semangat membara utk pulang ke kampung,sungguhpun ketika itu bukanlah hari raya.

Sesampainya di laman rumah,bedul terus berlari2 anak ke daun pintu.

"tok tok tok!" pintu diketuk tidak berjawab.

"tok tok tok! semekum!" ulang bedul lg.

berkali2 diulang perbuatan itu.namun hampa.

Adakah keluarganya telah berpindah?adakah beliau ditinggalkan sendiri?adakah berlaku musibah terhadap keluarganya?

Air mata ditahan,namun kelamaan menitis jua.jirannya, ali muncul tiba2 utk menenangkan beliau.

"sudahla bedol.yang dah p tu xyah dikenangkan lagi"

Semakin tebal penyesalan di hati bedul.semakin berjurai air matanya.

"mak abah adik hang p pekan.awat hang teriak ni?"

kawan kah kita? (kisah abdul dan ali)

Apa beza kawan, geng, member? Ada beza? xde beza.cuma kadang2 diorg bleh jadi bes.kadang2 xbes.kdg2 diorg carik kita.kdg2 kita carik diorg.kdg2 senang mtk pjm duit.kdg2 payah gak.

Ada plak jenis kwn yg xmcm kwn.bkn maksud sy kawan makan kwn.tp kawan yg kurang dikenali.kdg2 kawan atas kawan.bkn la pulak maksud sy kawan menunggang kawan ke kelas, tp kwn yg dikenali melalui kwn2.

Mereka yang boleh dikategorikan dlm golongan ini termasuklah mereka yg kita xtego lsg kalau beselisih.ataupon cuma senyum2 malu sbb lupa nama.kadang2 senyum kambing.konon nk sedekah.tp xingat nama.kan lg bek bg salam.dpt pahala.

Selalu spesis kwn mcm ni boleh didapati semasa melawat bilik member.kwn2 diorg akan turut sm melawat,jd pertukaran idea dan buah fikiran pn berlaku wpon kurg mengenali antara satu sama lain.dan apabila pulang,tidak pula berusaha utk menghubungi rakan2 tersebut.maka secara automatis,mereka menjadi kwn yg xmcm kwn.

Suatu hari ketika berjalan pulang dr menikmati hidangan tghr di cafe,abdul terserempak dgn ali, seorg kwn yg xmcm kwn.lalu dgn berani,beliau mengambil keputusan utk menyapa beliau.

50m.masih zon selamat.bedul masih boleh berpura2 tetinggal sesuatu dan mengambil jln yang lain utk mengelak drpd bertembung dgn ali.namun beliau tidak berputus asa.nekadnya hanya ingin menegur ali, sungguhpun dia xdpt mengingati nama beliau.

30m.

20m.

10m.

"oit!dr mn?"

"..."

Sumpah seranah bermaharajalela di hati abdul kerana sapaannya langsung tidak dibalas oleh ali.

Namun ali sedikit tidak rasa bersalah, kerana mungkin abdul menyapa org di belakang beliau, lantas beliau tidak mahu menanggung risiko malu buntut kerana perasan.

Sekian kisah sedih seorang abdul yg dilupakan kawan x mcm kawan.

utp network n me =)

Who am I in utp?im no one.im just a final year student waiting for a few more weeks to finish my studies and go out into the working world.am I just going to be just another undergraduate from utp?does my existence here gives no impact to others?

Well,I guess so.

As for now I want to talk about network in utp.am I qualified to talk about it?lets see who am I really.

Currently im the maintainer and owner of v5 dc++ hub.I am also the fifth admin and the second root admin of kampung5.I prepared and maintained the k5 imagehosting,which is used extensively by cameraphiles in utp.I am also the owner of the temp irc network,when soul.utpchat.net isn't available.

Still not enough?I provide fedora and ubuntu software repository for village5.active member of UTPOSSA,but not anymore since im busy with everything else.

Ok.done with that.that is my history.kinda boring isn't it?im going to graduate anyway.

Im not going to blabber much about myself.I want to talk about OUR network.yes u heard me.OUR very own utp network.

I've been here since 2004.my first encounter of student network services is with utpchat.net.there used to be one single server connecting users throughout v1-v4 (v5 doesn't even exist that time,n v1 n v2 only got internet access in late 2004).user counts averaging 1000+ users at any time given.

my first favourite mirc channel?its gotta be #bingseng.what is #bingseng?if utpchat is a breathing animal,bingseng is its heart.bingseng is among the first channel that promotes the usage of utp network as a sharing medium.its main attraction?mp3 files.some of us might still remembr @find bla3,dir,ls,/ctcp bla3 and many more mirc commands to grab files from fservs.

That was a long long time ago.from this filesharing activities,people learn to socialize and form interest groups in private channels.prominent examples are #helloproject,#linux,#unipet etc.

And then,there's GV.

What is GV?GrapeVine.utp forum.much like our current k5.but with stricter mods+hardcore writers who love to flame one another.and can be accessed throughout utp.there,I only love reading.I don't post much,partly because of the fear of being ridiculed by mods n other regular writers over there.

Students living in that era will remember the otais back then.effi,snubby,genjo,mangifera,yayi n a few others.

I wasn't popular in both services.just because im still young at that time compared to seasoned seniors.and im not interested in this politics.im happy as long as I can get my latest mp3s and vclips.

And then something happened.utp network was sliced into pieces.each village with their own network.new ip schemes introduced.they used to be 160.xxx.xxx.xxx.now we r separated.the first service to suffer was grapevine.n then mirc.

The server was located in v3/v4 but most of the regular GV writers live in v5.and during the early separation process,mirc network only limited to each village.n then there was novell login.do u still remember your novell login id?

I still do.

So what happened after that?the opers tried to restore connectivity between villages by connecting village servers to one another by using proxies.but situation changed rapidly.most juniors never bothered about mirc n gv.year fter year,it becomes worsened.then there came kampung5.originally intended as temporary gv replacement,k5 popularity grows as it gained attention from ex gv users in v5.most of gv users are disappointed with the move of gv to outside server.the slow page loading of gv makes k5 a superior choice bcos of its location in V5.

And then there is this server called dc++.started by ahca@helloproject,I was one of the experimental team for the dchub server.more or less,the popularity of dc++ hub grows each day as it follows the web2.0 definition.what is web2.0?traditional internet are passive internet whereby users login, get something and then logout.web2.0 extends more than that.it lets users participate,contribute,share and do much more with the internet.

This is what dc++ is for.participation from the users,compared to trditional filesharing under mIRC,makes dc++ a better choice for filesharers.

Although the importance of mirc decreases day by day,the legacy still continues.we can say that less than 300 active users of mirc still exists but its presence is still needed,as long as the people are there

I still hope that despite the tremendous pressure from network condition of utp,itms and the users themselves, that 10 years from now,I still can see utpchat.net and dc++ is still here in utp,and I can say proudly that im part of it long ago.

So what does the future has to offer to the new generation of utp students?the answer really lies in the hands of the students themselves.they can choose to support the communication method as it is right now or dump it for something new and fresh.I just don't want to see the so-called modern messengers like gtalk/ym/msn replace the functionality of mirc networks.yes,indeed mirc has been around in decades,but its not outdated at all.I hope that all the juniors would understand this and start to embrace the mirc once again and bring back the golden era of utp network.

question mark? do i always question things? (pls dont say im a whiner)

You Are a Question Mark

You seek knowledge and insight in every form possible. You love learning. And while you know a lot, you don't act like a know it all. You're open to learning you're wrong. You ask a lot of questions, collect a lot of data, and always dig deep to find out more. You're naturally curious and inquisitive. You jump to ask a question when the opportunity arises. Your friends see you as interesting, insightful, and thought provoking. (But they're not always up for the intense inquisitions that you love!) You excel in: Higher education You get along best with: The Comma

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

liwat? liwat? liwat? gay kah malaysia?

ini pandangan saya. sy rasa kita semua patut ambil. saya dapati dari ustaz sobri arshad.

mula mula sekali, sy nak lontarkan satu soalan. tahukah kita apa hukum had yg dikenakan kepada pesalah liwat? sy tau, semua setuju hukuman utk penzina bujang 100x sebat, dah kawin rejam smpi mati.

tp liwat? hukumnya mati jugak. bukan sahaja kepada penjolok, malah yg dijoloki jugak kena bunuh. kenapa? ini merosak institusi kekeluargaan. merosak institusi perkahwinan. menghalalkan hubungan sejenis. dalam islam, perlu tegas, bahawa haram hukumnya buat benda2 mcm ni.

dan saiful bukhari pulak buat tuduhan anwar dah meliwat beliau. ini sgt2 berbahaya. seolah2 dia sendiri menempah maut dalam hukum islam. sebab itu berat sgt kes ini.

kedua. bersumpah atas nama allah. bersumpah allah akan laknat diri sekiranya sumpah itu dilanggari. 3x sumpah mengaku tidak bersalah atas pertuduhan. sunat pulak hakim yg menjadi saksi sumpah tu menepuk mulut yg bersumpah dan memperingati bahawa sumpah selepas itu adalah melaknati diri sendiri. selepas itu barulah sumpah melaknat diri diri kalau sumpah itu tidak betul.

setakat bersumpah wallahi waillahi watallahi tu takleh pakai. tapi takde sapa berani tegur pak najib cara nak bersumpah yg betul. begitu jugak hisamudin hussin.

ketiga. apa pendekatan kita dalam hal ini? sebagai seorang muslim mukmin, bek la kita jauhkan diri dari cerita hal2 yg sangat2 aib ini. ini cerita dalam kelambu anwar, dalam kelambu saiful. ntah betul tidak wallahualam. takpayah la bercerita bergendangan merata2 sedangkan faktanya kita tidak tahu apa2.

sebab apa perlu kita ambik pendekatan diam? sekarang ni berlaku krisis kepercayaan yang sangat dalam di kalangan rakyat Malaysia. penyokong anwar di satu pihak tidak mempercayai lagi pihak polis yg menjalankan siasatan. hatta hakim yang menegakkan keadilan pon boleh dibengkokkan dengan suapan dua tiga kupang.

paklah pun makin lama makin dihakis kepercayaan utk memerintah. ramai mempertikaikan wujudnya YB rembau dalam projek2 kerajaan, termasuk penyokong2 setia kerajaan sendiri. najib pulak dgn kes altantuya.

penyokong kerajaan pula tidak lagi percaya kepada anwar dgn tuduhan liwatnya. juga kes anwar menerima syarat IMF yg digembar-gemburkan selama ini. mereka juga melihat pakatan rakyat bersifat semtara dan tidak kukuh utk membentuk kerajaan persekutuan.

ultra nasionalis melayu juga hilang kepercayaan terhadap keupayaan PKR meneutralkan tuntutan DAP yg dilihat mereka merugikan melayu. bukan bumiputra mula melihat MIC MCA Gerakan sebagai kuli dan balaci UMNO walaupun cuba diyakinkan oleh pimpinan tertinggi mereka.

PAS? sebagai pembangkang yg mempunyai plg sedikit kerusi dalam dewan tentunya merasa mereka disisihkan dalam Pakatan Rakyat.

kesimpulannya? kita kena akui, politik malaysia sedang tidak stabil. dan kita sebenarnya patut memberi laluan kepada pakatan rakyat utk pilihanraya seterusnya. bukan sy menykong mereka, tetapi kita perlu kepada sistem biparty yg diamalkan samada di The Palace of Westminster di UK ataupun kongres US.ini menjamin rakyat mendapat yang terbaik utk mereka.

great great time

last night was my drama class. yea i suck for taking drama for my co-cu this semester. there are much 'cooler' cocu i can take like sports science, etc2x, but since this co-cu subject already suck, i guess getting into this artsy thing is not a worst thing to do.

had a great time, actually, i must admit. it's been awhile since i last taken non-maths class. doing facial expressions while not having any emotions attached to it, priceless. I even scared the poop out of my classmate for my angry expression LOL.

however, this Drama Queen in our class really annoys me. She needs to learn that in order to get through the class, you have to keep the lecturer happy. her reluctancy to show facial expressions really annoys us all. it's not that i love this drama class. i hate it. totally. but i know i had to keep the instructor happy, so we can go home early, and happily. This Drama Queen keep saying i cant icant icant like its some kind of evil sin to do it.and that dragged the whole class down. damn it.

and yesterday, i just knew how it feels like after months and years of patience and waiting. and it pays back. it really feels good!. like you 0wn3d the world! tq darling... i will not waste my chances. not anymore :)

Industrial Training

this is my general experience doing industrial training in klcc. there are pros and cons. so as a gide to anyone who wanted to do their internship in KL, here it goes:

location: klcc
company: xxxx
dept: xxxx

scope of work:
as a trainee, you will be treated as, well, trainee. this is the best part. if you are given any work, you didnt manage to finish it on time (for watever reasons, malas included), u can just say "sya tak reti" or "boleh tak tlg guide lg, sbb kerja ni sy rs susah nk paham".

and they'll treat you as a student. that means, no serious engineering works - design, etc. unless you request it. believe me, if u want it, u can just sit on yr table without doing anything in 8 months. but youll be troubled when it comes to weekly logs and final report.

logs and reports. this is the best part. u can choose to copy and paste previous trainees' reports. they are abundant and are of no worries.

leisure/ent:
well, i lived in kl for 8 months and i can say that its true that it is full of entertainment, day and night, provided u know how and who to look for.

the only downside is, being paid like a clerk, money is your limitation. be 'wise' when doing claims. perah cukup2 mana2 yg boleh claim. and if possible, try as hard as you can to participate in outdoor activities. my company is generous in giving claims to employees.

as for ponteng2/curik tulang/tgv during office hours, i cannot tell directly. pandai2 la korang nk idop keje kat klcc. ive been there and done it. all i can say is the notion that 'keje kat klcc lepak' is quite true up to some point.

we did have our stressful day. be fair la i did the metocean for vietnam yatagun platform and it sucks. analyzing wind speed/wave/tide data each for every 10 mins daily for 5 years WTF.

life:
makan2 is an easy thing to find in kl, but the delicious ones u have to find la. staffs in klcc usually have their lunch in central plaza (a building beside klcc) or BSN tower.food in klcc itself is very expensive. expect rm6 for nasi campur biasa. dont worry spending >rm10 per day on food will be regular when uve grown accustomed to it. (this is the part ure grateful to pak ali's price LOL)

LRT is one of the most important mode of transportation if u dont have any other options. but beware when it's 7am-9am, 530pm-7pm on weekdays. it'll be hell. buy a monthly pass if u can. itll help u a lot skipping q's. and once a year there's this event where all this nerdy hackers, innocent ppl who flock klcc convention center to buy PC parts at 'low price' while in fact, some of the goods over there are overpriced. i think ppl call it pc fair. and it WILL BE HELL WAITING IN LINE FOR LRT on friday (office ppl + nerdy ppl + pc parts).

as for single guys out there, if youre good enough, u can find many college girls to be yr gf , esp if youre living in condo/apartment rented by private colleges for their students. but remember, they do have curfews, so take them back before 11 XD a quick tips: dont say that ure a trainee to them. u can just tell them ure an engineer. they'll never bother the details lol.

conclusion:
life in kl is great, but comes with a cost
pcsb treats us kindly, like a student
no serious work unless upon request (yea i suck requesting this metocean job lol)

About a Taurean guy I am :D

About a Taurean guy I am :D

i got this from my friend's blog, payeh. and i find it rather amusing that this kinda describes me afterall.

A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will be quite straight, facial structure tends to be square shape more than other shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness.

physical. quite true. medium tall. strong with good health haha. im a bit bulky to be precise. not fat or muscular. i like this part: he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. this is so goddamn true man! somone did comment that i tend to do this, especially if i want clarification.

Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is sand in your palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold it still, it will stay that way. Don't set the rules and draw a line or him, he will not stay.

aha. yeah im a free, wild bird. quite true up to some point. but trust me, despite being kinda flirtatious, i am loyal guy ;)

When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone wrong, he will blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people.

the part 'If he up sets, he will show it right away' is not quite true. depends on who im with. i will if i feel comfortable with the said person.

He sincere to his friends even to some friends he does not like. He likes to do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself.

He does not care what people think when he behaves weird. He could be walking bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk vendor.

i like this part. i love surprises. and sometimes i behave weird, only to feel how is it like to be weird. and i never care about others' opinions. to hell with it haha.

He likes to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually learning about you till he fills up all his questions.

betul kan syg? hi2. i analyse ppl. when i converse, i do look at the simplest gestures. or facial features. and i can tell a fake smile to a genuine one. but don't worry, i only analyse, i dont judge.

He knows so many people, but he has a few friends. He looks for quality friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could create his own little world, and sometimes no one would understand him. He looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the
others.

i have many friends. close friends? one. or two. best friend? maybe one. u see, i have difficulties trusting people. i may seem to be friendly, but i do anayse people. but when i trusted someone, i fully trust them.

A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to let him be. He won't disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back.

He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and hate to force himself in competition. He may seem careless, but actually he is a thinker and a stubborn one.

this is a bit tricky. i'd rather keep my dreams to myself. im an engineering student, but i do have dreams to have other career, which i'll only tell to my closest friends.

He sees anything in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you as a friend, no one can say other wise to change that for he will not listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends.

hah! kan dah kata!

He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything. If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul.

id rather avoid answering than tell lies.
lies are of no good. period.

If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person.
He has to be curious about you. Hell for him is "No Freedom", so if he marries you then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be interesting, and then you could have him beside you.

:) now i hope u understand b hehe

pangkor yeahuuu

rite now im in pgkor.. will updt later cus typing using psp sux :D

first day at school

kinda cool. after 2 months of rest, finally got back to utp, and today's my first day of lecture - as a senior. yeahu~ finally im getting there - graduation. hopefully in 14 weeks, i'll be eligible for graduation.

bt life's not that easy. well, if you compare being an engineer with being a student.

lets see what the future holds, ok?

My First Post

Just a test post.