Saturday, October 10, 2009

a nice song. just for you =)



 Tsukiakari Funwari Ochitekuru Yoru
Shin Chan ending theme eps 249-297 

(literal translation) 
The night when moonlight falls softly
Only of you
Without being simply it even if I think even if I think
The night when moon light falls softly
As for you and two people
I want to walk the paths of the moon leading to the end of the sea

South wind brushes cheeks
Like a gentle palm
The whole body did you color
I seem to be stained with dusk

## chorus

I want to tell to be in tune with wind
I hug such thought alone

The night when moon light falls softly
Only as for the sad words
Like a wave to repeat itself again and again, again and again
A story of the common small love
Only as for the epilogue
You of the smile want the pure white page

The love that it isn't encountered
I am carefree and am good rather
Whenever new morning comes
A dream is over by a sigh




Japanese Romaji
 
## Tsukiakari funwari ochitekuru yoru wa
Anata no koto bakari
kangaetemo kangaetemo tsukirukoto mo naku
Tsukiakari funwari ochitekuru yoru wa
Anata to futarikiri
Umi no hate e to tsuzuku tsuki no michi arukitai

Minamikaze ga hoho o nadete iku
yasashii te no hira no you ni
karadachuu ga anata iro shita
yuuyami ni somari sou de

# kaze ni nose tsutaetai
sonna omoi hitori dakishimeru

Tsukiakari funwari ochitekuru yoru wa
setsunai kotoba dake
nandodemo nandodemo kurikaesu nami no you ni
arifureta chiisana koi no monogatari
epiro-gu dake mitai
masshirona pe-jini egao no anata ga hoshii

awanaide irareru koi nara
isso kirakude iiyone
atarashii asa ga kuru tabini
tameiki de yume ga owaru

Repeat # ##

 
 

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

raya

this raya not so good for me.

first day everything went ok. went 'beraya' with my sisters and bro. not very much to say, but its been an enjoyable outing.

usual raya routine, solat sunat, then g rumah sedara mara, then balik kg.

2nd day, early morning, makan lemang, which spells disaster to me till today. turns out that lemang oredi 'nak basi'.

to my perut, 'nak basi' means 'sudah rotten badly'. my stomach cannot tolerate even the slightest food that is uncooked, or nearly expired. i will get bitter diarrhoea for several days, which is what i'm facing right now. second raya, third raya and today, fourth raya i spend mostly in the toilet. last night, i counted almost 25 times i went to the loo from 12 midnight to the dawn. almost kene buasir lol.

thinking of going to the hospital. but i think the doctors wont do much. put in 'air' then wait wait and wait in the ward for a few days then discharge.routine for assholes getting paid thousands for dispensing panadols and antibiotics.sorry for my generalisation of their profession lol.

anyhow, sbb sakit perut nk kareb, upload pics dulu. tata...


sisters n mama



me and bdk2 kecik (one called me ayah for no reason at all lol)


me and sis

Monday, September 21, 2009

a belated hari raya wish


homemade dodol


homemade lemang


selamat hari raya to all readers. nak rasa lemang dan dodol jemputla ke rumah. unfortunately lemang dah habis, so rasa dodol jela.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

one word

16th August 2009.

so many words to say to describe it.

in the end, only one word can define it all...


...





ALHAMDULILLAH

Saturday, August 8, 2009

it haz another caturday

128296083537501250kittycannotre.jpg

to do list today

ponteng kerja

go to clinic. check my one-week-old cough

get an mc

tido

bangun

tido

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and they say life is interesting.

irony? i bluntly say bullshit. lol.


All I can say is dat my life is pretty plain.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

asia ceramic

in the mood for multiple updates today. first, asia ceramic.

http://www.bnm.gov.my/index.php?ch=8&pg=14&ac=1880

i'm not going to comment on BNM's action. it's their duty to investigate any monetary-related cases or suspicious transactions by legitimate or illegitimate companies.

indeed, this company have a weird taste of a business plan.

buying a cheapo clay for more than a thousand bucks is strange enough. and selling it back for a higher price? hurm...

one may suspect this is the case of money laundering. a racket of crime syndicate trying to make illegitimate money usable in mass market. seems like a movie, but plausible.

well, suffice to say i certainly hope it's not what i thought it is. and too bad for anyone who recently chuck their money in. BNM will freeze the money and looking at previous record of BNM investigations, god knows when they will release the money.

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http://www.azizwan.com/wah-asia-ceramic-memang-hot/

looking at this link, one might say it's related to the news above.

sadly, it's just a cheap ass bastard trying to push his website up the google search to attract traffics.

and its fucking annoying to find out the link i just clicked on is just a waste of bandwidth.

eff. at least write something lah... ugh!

need advice

I'm buying another property in Penang. ~5km from Bukit Mertajam and ~2km Kulim, double storey terrace house. 20x60 sqft. selling at RM95k. got security guard also in the housing area.

OR

in Kulim, taman selasih. terrace, single storey, corner lot selling at 85k. big area and can renovate some more.

which one u think the best? just asking opinion here he he.

ASB loan



to those of you who already had ASB loan from local banks, just carry on. this is just a friendly advice for my friends who have not done so.

ASB is incorporated by PNB as BUMIPUTERA ONLY trust fund, as an incentive to encourage saving habits to bumis and enculcate investment without exposing them to unnecessary risks.

however, most of malays are lacking the fund to join ASB to reap its full benefit. average return per year is around 7% lately.

this is where banks giving away loans for this fund.

i read through the internet, and i reached to a conclusion that taking loans for asb is not a smart method of investment.

unless you cannot discipline yourself in saving your money.

banks saw this as an opportunity to gain money without exposing themselves to unnecessary risks. offering at BLR -1.25% (actual rate of some bank) this seems attractive. i, however, see this just as another alibaba license. banks dont have to be a malay to invest in asb, rather, they used their customer's name in obtaining asb certs.

and during bad times, BLR can go as high as 12%. instead of you getting the dividend, you are paying the banks for nothing! i know this is the worst case scenario, but no one can predict the future.

it's better you save your money little by little. you will have full control of your finances and who knows, maybe you need extra funds in emergency?

unless you cannot discipline yourself and need to be forced to pay monthly loan, don't take ASB loan because it's just a way banks make free profits with minimal risk.

i hate it when i thought of working for the bank for free. i expect them to pay me, not the other way around.

i know the loan means you have a leverage for your money in the long run. however the return is too small <10% making it unattractive, at all. only make loans where you can be confident that the spread is more than 10%.

well, that's just imho. any comments are welcomed =)

Sunday, August 2, 2009

rant 002 - hopeless


funny pictures of cats with captions


hopeless

@home
@career
@life
@myself
@finance

sigh

i really hope they postpone convocation since i'm having the worst time of the year (sorry to sound selfish, but this is just a mere personal hope. kinda like self-thought)

someone lend me a non-judgmental ear pls? or a shoulder to cr... er nvm.

apparently, u can find many cross-eyed guys in construction industry.


funny pictures of cats with captions

or maybe its just me?

Thursday, July 30, 2009

selsema BABI

IMPORTANT : H1N1 NOTICE!

Dear Staff,

As of Wednesday 29 July 2009, the Ministry of Health has reported a total of 1266 H1N1 positive cases with 4 fatalities (574 import and 692 local). Who has also reported a total of 169753 cases of H1N1 and 1125 fatalities among the 159 countries affected.

In UTP, we have started to screen and isolate students who are showing symptoms of Influenza-Liked Illnesses (ILI). Under the advise of Dr Saadah from UTP Health clinics, we have placed 73 students (52 males and 21 females) under quarantined in Duyong (old V5-males) and Village 2 (females). They continue to be observed and receive medical treatment from UTP Health Clinic Officers. Some of the students have recovered and released from being quarantined but continue to receive high number of new cases.

We have taken and sent 5 throat swab samples of the students with serious conditions for further analysis by the Health authorities and waiting for the results sometime soon. We will continue to monitor the situations and work closely with UTP Health clinic and District Medical Office (Perak Tengah). We will assist in providing facilities and support in Duyong (80 beds), V2C (64 beds) and house (16 beds).

Personnel from various departments (Residential College, HSE, SSS, security, administration and others) have provided full commitment in supporting the need of the students. We will also require volunteers to further assist us in providing support for the students who had to be quarantined.

Please continue to observe the need to monitors your health and maintain a good personal hygiene. Practice social distancing and avoid going to crowded public places to avoid possible spread of the virus.

If you develop the symptoms of ILI (high fever, sore throats, body ache and difficulty breathing), please seek immediate medical attention and follow the advise of the attending doctor. Wear the facemask to avoid further spread of the virus and impose a self quarantine if required.

Mohd Noh Karsiti
Chairman H1N1 Taskforce.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

i want to make it!!insyaallah :)

Ada perisa keladi. Ada warna kuning keemasa dan juga hijau


Berwarna ceria dan ala jelly muka buminya


Berinti kaya berwarna pink dan lembut


Telur putih menjadi bahan utama


Ala-ala donut malaysia. Main Ingredients: keledek


Inti kelapa atau kacang hijau ataupun mungkin juga serunding. Berbentuk bulat. Jarang sekali ditemui bentuk lonjong, tapi tetap wujud.

Biasa dipanggil kuih untuk orang xde gigi.


Inti kelapa yang digaul gula melaka. Di gulung2 ala popia


Di salut tepung beras. Wujud dalam analogi. Cth Ayat : "Popuan tu pakai bedak dh cam _______ dh aku tengok"


Ada kale hijau. Ade kale kuning. Ada ada inti, ada juga yang kosong.


Origin : Kelantan. Bahan utama : Telur


Common digabungkan 4 unsur kejadian. Tepung, pulut kaler merah, gula melaka dan kepala santan yg agak pekat(optional). Rasa seperti bubur sumsum


Ada gula di lapisan bawah. Dibungkus daun pisang. Kalau ada jagung, dipanggil Kuih Talam.


Tahan lama. Disira dalam air gula. Antara bahan : kuning telur
Kadang-kadang bole ada bijan. Kadang-kadang xde bijan.


Bole dibentuk mengikut acuan. Atau di potong bersegi. Common kaler coklat atau bole diwarna warnikan


Perisa keladi kaler purple. Perisa ubi kaler kuning. Biasanya lapisan hijau sekaya dan lapisan putih nipis di buat dari pulut atau tepung.


kaler common Hijau tp bukan Incredible Hulk. Bole juga diwarnakan dengan apa2 kaler...

Terlalu banyak nama. Antara nama panggilannya 'kekoh kekoh cha'. Gula Melaka di dalam

Tekap guna acuan. Lembut dan ringan. Kelapa kat atas. Wujud juga dengan kale pink atau kuning mengikut perwarna. Common hijau lah.


Juga dikenali kuih telinga keling. Manis sgt

Ringan.Sedap cicah air teh.



Pulut. Di gaul ngan kelapa dan dimakan bersama gula Melaka.



kelaparan


rasa macam nak goreng masak merah jer die ni...goreng pon sodap :D

p/s: sori spam di blog kamu :P

Thursday, July 23, 2009

oh ya

maafkan sikapku semlm.

sori. tak sepatutnya bersikap begitu.
janji takkan ulangi lagi.
janji.

rindu...

antara berani dan kurang ajar. antara pengajaran dan mengajar.

salam.

rempit. kl drift. lenjan. bohsia. budak kelantan.

itu nama filem2 baru kat malaysia. nampak trend nya?

ter baru? ANU DALAM BOTOL.

kosmo

wtf semua nak jadi gay hari ni?

dah jadi trend ke nk buat filem, amik problem sosial jadik tema?

alasannya?
- masyarakat lebih terbuka
- menyedarkan orang ramai
- tidak bersifat denial terhadap masalah sosial

bullshit. tu semua nak untung saja tu. sapa yang tak suka tgk diana danielle pakai skirt terselak? tgk lurah raja farah yg slurp2? tgk 2-3 ekor lelaki kenduri sorang pempuan?

pengajaran taik kucing engkau.

berapa ekor mat rempit insaf lepas tgk cite remipt? baper ekor bohsia nk bertaubat lepas tgk bohsia? brapa org pusher yg insaf lepas tgk filem gangster, castello?

kalau nak sedarkan sangat, tunjuk adegan rempit tu 2-3 saat dah la. lagi 3-4 jam tu tunjuk eksiden pecah kepala patah tengkuk putus anu. baru diorang nak sedar.

kalau nak sedarkan pusher, tunjuk bab kena tangkap sampai tengkuk patah kena tali gantung. baru berkesan.

kalau nak sedarkan bohsia, tunjuk ex-bohsia yang tgh kurus kering tunggu masa nak mampus kena AIDS.

ini tidak, tunjuk bab2 seronok saja.

nak lagi best? tunjuk seksa kubo. biar derang tau seksa nnt lam kubo.

babak yg tu cepat2 lak Lembaga Penapisan Filem nak sensor. memberi impak negatif kepada kanak2 konon. pigida. br kena tekan sket dgn pengarah2 lancau dah terkincit. as an authority, you must know your responsibility and work. Jgn biarkan orang lain pengaruhi kerja kita pulak.

tak tahulah. ketahuilah wahai orang2 tua skrg. zmn remaja adalah zaman bodoh. ya aku mengaku aku pernah bodoh. apa yg ditengok, semua nak dibuat. aku pun remaja lagi. tapi dah lewat remaja la hahaha. jangan la g sodok diorang dengan filem2 picisan dengan alasan nak bagi pengajaran tapi sebaliknya mengajar pulak diorang buat kurang ajar.

filem-filem macam ni bukan berani. tapi filem kurang ajar.

chow, post pedas dari aku. babai.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

are we friend?


are u good enough to call someone as ur best friend?

are u good enough to be his/her best friend?

better just be friends cause we're both not good enough for each other



THE END

Sunday, July 19, 2009

rant no001: no fun anymore

i'm depressed. yes i am. no matter how i'm trying to hide it, i still feel empty. on weekends, i sleep the whole day. on weekdays, i work till 6p.m. and at night, i spend my time browsing through the empty space of internet about things that is never going to affect me at all. then i sleep.

where's the weekends i used to have while i was in college? or the weekends i had during my intern? lepaking with friends and people of many sorts. i must admit that right now my social skill is nearly paralysed. living with parents isn't helping at all. it just doesn't feel right to go mamak and watch football, go back home at 2am while my parents are sleeping.

everybody's busy. so do i. but i think i'm being unfair to myself. it's all work and no fun now. i'm really messed up right now. to quit my job means that i'm giving up hope on my life.i don't want to talk about it with anyone. not even to closest people in my life.

ah just forget it. my life sucks. why ramble about it anyway? adios


random thoughts 001

today i watched transformers 2. not in the cinema btw and i confess that i slept halfway into the story. then i woke up 10 minutes before it ends and wtf the robots fought each other till the end of the dvd. no wonder i fell asleep then, 2 hours of continuous screeching metals and screaming tires wtf. and megan fox's hotness can't redeem the worth of this movie. yea i know partly because of he clubbed thumbs wtf that is a major turn-off for me.

well clubbed thumbs or not, if you google hard enough, you can find pictures of her wearing only nip-guard. wtf ONLY NIP GUARD. no pictures here I'm trying not to be a pervert lol.

just forget about my previous post. i rarely post in anger. when i do, i realy mean it. and the 'this is my rant' warning is just to warn you readers that i need to release my anger to my blog, not YOU. if you find my post depressing and offensive, go and read something else at your pleasure. that post wasn't meant for you anyway.

on contrast, i am happy today. no worries whatsoever. and my work went on smoothly. i don't really care anymore as i think i need to value experience more than anything else. if there's any other offer, i will go. no need giving myself a big headache thinking about something I can't control.

since tomorrow is weekend i want to have a nice relaxing break at home.



Saturday, July 11, 2009

a rant post

be warned that this is a rant post.

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i warned you enough... so...



I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB


not just the regular 'i hate my job because its boring' or other lame 'hate my 9 to 5 job' rants you see in typical stupid blogs that don't know how to differentiate between 'responsibility' and 'work'.

It's just that I REALLY HATE MY JOB.

oh noes. i don't hate my job.

i just FUCKIN HATE MY STUPID LAZY-MORON ASS BOSS!

just terminate me, idiot. i won't lose my fucking life just because im terminated from your stupid company.

Bumiputra Kelas-A kontraktor my ass
satu kulim kenal my ass
wants to be like ahmad zhaki and IJM my ass



bullshit

there are reasons why so many people quits from your company, idiot. and one most profound reason is YOU.

now you can talk cock in front of us. someday someone will bash your lazy ass without mercy.

and it's your fault your company got terminated from the project. IN YOUR FACE, SCUM!

wait till my contract is over. i will bash your stupidity here. and i will tell the readers of my blog what knd of company you own.

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OK.

enough ranting. -back to job hunting-

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Browser-centric OS

As the title suggests, does browser centric OS be the future of computing? This piece was written because of this announcement:
http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2009/07/introducing-google-chrome-os.html

their promises:
- Free lightweight OS for netbooks
- browser as the main application
- user-centric UI (speed and simplicity)
- better security
- compatibility across systems (x86, mac, arm etc)
- lightning fast startups

most of it have been on my mind for ages. for instance, fast startups. why should we wait (or rather, 'waste') 15-30 seconds of our life waiting for bootup, just to check our email? cant we just push the power button and instantly read our email? drivers can load later imho.

to take browser into the heart of an OS is not a new idea. remember netscape and its similar idea? a decade ago? even MS tried to integrate IE into windows, but they faced antitrust charges (remember ActiveDesktop?). Google's idea is nothing new of sort, but with more widespread broadband access across the world, it's now viable and usable, when compared to ancient ages of dial-up during the netscape time.

and security promises, we certainly hope that Chrome OScan live up to its expectation. we certainly know the limitation on how an OS can secure its users (well, most of the users don't. lol!). majority of security compromise can be avoided if the users use a bit of thinking when they want to submit their private informations online. so let's see how Chrome can beat OpenBSD in terms of security (they might as well use OpenBSD kernel instead of Linux =b)

only less than 24 hours from the announcement and people are already speculating. let's hope that this will be another milestone product from google.

well, here's a gift for you, another windows-bashing comic. enjoy =D


http://xkcd.com/529/

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

get well soon sis!

to kakak,

sorry to hear the bad news. we certainly hope that you will get well real soon. don't worry too much because our prayers are with you and we hope your dengue fever is not serious.


nyamuk jahat!



mama, ayah and adik2 certainly missed your presence and are looking forward to your arrival this coming august, my dear sis. so promise me you will get well soon ok?

he he, she's one great adik whom i called kakak since kecik lol. imagine when we both talk to each other, 'kakak' and 'abang' huhuhu.

ps - bila boleh buat surat MC nih? tak larat nak beli dari klinik lah. mahal mintak hang buat free ar nnt. kira setel utang =D

from your beloved abang

Sunday, July 5, 2009

celcom totally suck this week

i used to connect to the internet using my PDAphone as a modem. however, this phone will become scorching hot and its battery life is getting worse every day.

so i decided, its time to buy a dedicated 3g modem. and its kinda cheap right now, just over rm150, compared to rm399 months ago.

so i bought one last week, and happily plugged it in my PC. speed was good, at least comparable to my PDAphone, until last friday.

see for yourself:


wtf HSDPA with this kind of speed? not even 5KBps!
dear celcom. if you want to sell this kind of service, dont name it celcom broadband. name it celcom dialup or anything other than broadband/3G/HSDPA.
and this is not my 3g modem's fault as i tested my subscription with my PDAphone and it's just the same (<5kbps)
dont make me switch to winet or other providers. once i switch, i will never go back. and i will make sure everyone around me knows how bad your service is.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

the grandiose of having the intent of making things happen

this world spins with only one rule: uncertainty.

and yet, we plan.

and plan.

and plan.

And it becomes a necessity to plan just to control those uncertainties. Unfortunately, it's always the other way around. In the end, GOD determines our life.

We plan, He determines. (kita merancang, Allah menentukan)

While planning, we may forget that All-Powerful is the the one who plan for us earlier. And sometimes, we plan arrogantly, telling people that this will work, this is going to happen, things are so predictable and no problems are expected, and worst, telling people that your plan is going to work no matter what.

In short, arrogance.

And unexpected things will hit you at times like this. You will suffer. All your supposedly great plans will vanish into thin air. Your dreams shatter. And destiny shows you no mercy at all.

and you realize, no matter how much you try to control your life, there will always be a twist of plot for you.

Don't worry, those are necessary lessons of life. Never regret your life at all.

Having intentions of making your dreams realized already proved that you're a champion at challenging life, not a sore loser who sulks at his mediocre lowlife (no matter how grand he lives).

have a good day =)

oh ya, this is an apology postt, as i promised b =)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Between different views and conflicting interest

when talking about views and interest, one might wonder, are there any connection between those two? 'view' here is taken from the context of your paradigm, outlook and vision to an issue or an individual. many would say 'most' of our views are clouded by our interest, as we are, subconciously, a narcissistic creature. when we look into something, no matter how far reaching it is, subconciously we think of what's in it that might affect us, either positively or negatively.

this is by far, how our brain works. we live in our own sphere of life. and we try to connect our sphere to others', while maintaining our own. this social instinct is hardwired into us by Allah as a mean to protect ourselves, family, religion, race, aspiration, political ideology and many more.

however, most of the time, this mechanism can be very annoying to people around you. and sadly, this is how people in Malaysia reacts when it comes to politics.

i can say, the people around me can be divided into four groups, politically. Pro government, pro PR, indifferent group and critical group. the first two are really a bunch of annoying people. they don't allow critical thoughts that provoke their skeptical minds seep through their brain and trigger their thinking switches.

let me take an example. a BN leader is convicted with corruption. immediately the response from pro PR bloggers are BN korap, UMNO rasuah, UMNO itu ini, wihout any hesitation. this generalisation of people is culturally repressive and does not promote development of quality thinking. another example, when a PAS state representative is having a marital problem involving his second wife, immediately the response are pemimpin PAS mempergunakan agama, berpolitik atas pentas agama especially from pro BN bloggers.

and all those name callings - YB BABI, Najis, mamakdey, muka sembap, and many more are just nauseating and plain disgusting. if you want to comment, dear readers of politic blogs, do it intelligently and give comments that add values. not comments that insults your own intelligence. if you want to post hu-ha comments, do it on a private blog, please. this is simply saddening. our political attitude is simply not showing signs of maturity, although at some point, we do realise that government is not all angels and PR is not all devils, and we don't really take mainstream news for granted.

anyway, good luck malaysia. may the best be with us the loyal citizens of Malaysia, no matter who the government is.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

what the *beep*!

was hopping around the net for regular visits on usual sites.

but...


anyone willing to explain why they close down this site?


owh *beep*
this is the most important resource for me on the net. why the hell they close it down?
not in a good mood now.
-down-

Thursday, May 28, 2009

a good, deserving win



barca 2-0 manyoo.

such an astonishing performance from the catalan club would be an understatement of their effort tonight. heaps of praises should go to iniesta for his superb performance controlling the midfield. etoo and messi for their finishing. and efforts from henry, xavi, puyol.

and where the f*** is ronaldo? greatest footballer my a**. losing his pace against carlos puyol is one thing, but losing his cool against his opponent? seeing what he has done to puyol, i really think the fans should rethink about all the hype that has been given to him. all he played tonight was anything but football. period. and he has not been influential tonight. not enough to justify all the credits he had been given.

pep guardiola should be given proper credit to the team's win tonight. after all, barcelona really played as a team, with all those fluid passes, slick through passes and effective runs that outclassed the supposedly epl champions.

come to think of it, is epl THAT competitive? or is it just another hype? or is it just that la liga is so much better than epl?

you decide. =)



henry and messi:


ni lol:



pep guardiola, one of few men who won champs league both as player and manager:

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

crazy A319 takeoff

credit to http://flyfreakmatter.blogspot.com/2009/05/ter-kench-or-ter-berry.html

sorry to the blog owner if she felt that merely re-post that video is lame.

mahu tahu apa perasaan nek kapal terbang dengan sekor pilot sewel?



luls!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Love Story

cuti yang bosan. btw pek, semlm aku bwk mel g makan2. hahahahah. mel cengal dol. skang dia petikel kat kulim. abeda.

on another note, nice la plak lagu nih.



Love Story
Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, let's leave this town for a little while
Oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me they're tryna tell me how to feel
this love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I'll keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

Saturday, May 2, 2009

confession

ini adalah post pengakuan. kalau rasa masalah korang sendiri dah terlampau banyak, dinasihatkan jangan baca. kang pening kepala korang. ahah.

and i warn you, this post will sound a bit cheeky, bold and seems aggressively arrogant. luls. and maybe, to ambitious.

dah warning dah, so pandai2 la korang. jangan pas baca komen2 pelik2 plak ahah.

kamu tahu apa cita cita aku dari kecik? masa umur 7 tahun rasanya, aku join rombongan nganto nenek sedara pegi haji. kat bayan lepas, pulau pinang. masa tu meriah. macam pasar malam kat situ. hampar tikar, berkelah ramai2. seronoknya. tapi kamu tahu apa yang paling menyeronokkan dalam kepala hotak 7 tahun aku masa tu?

tengok Boeing 747 teksi kat runway (when a plane is moving around an airport, we call it taxiing) luls.


a Boeing 747-400 taxiing on a runway. What a beauty.

fuh. aku tengok gergasi betui kapalterbang. macam mana dia bulih terbang nih? musykil aku. tapi memandangkan masa tu internet pun takdak lagi kat malaysia rasanya, so aku tokleh nak google hahahahah. tapi dalam hati aku dah pasang niat kuat-kuat "AKU NAK JADIK PILOT SATU HARI NANTI". bijak kan palotak aku masa tu? macam mana la aku bulih tau kapal terbang tu ade 2 ekor manusia bawak. ahahah. tapi aku tanya gak la bapak aku sapa yang pakai peak caps + epaulette + kot yang ader stripe kat lengan + tie itam. oh sungguh kacaklah jika aku dapat pakai. kan kan kan? uniform pilot tuh ahah.


:D

so sampailah sekolah menengah cita-cita aku macam tu. and i deserve having such a high ambition, because i was in an "elite school" lah kononnya. ahahah. talking about produk gagal :b

after school, i have a few choices, go straight into MAS or SIA cadetship. I wouldn't remember if MARA was sponsoring pilot students back then (2004) and i just knew they did in 2007.


singapore girls? (SIA stewardess)


or malaysian girls? luls! (MAS stewardess)

however, to go to SIA cadetship, you need to have a bachelor's degree, which didn't have, so i was left with two choices: do my degree first or directly go into MAS cadetship.

and i did not pick he latter. you know why? SIA's fleet are mostly widebody, and cater for long haul journey, so when you first enter SIA as second/first officer, chances are, you will be assigned to any widebody aircraft, unlike MAS, where you will be assigned to a 737 or fokker 50 first (both are 'small' aircraft).

plus, having a degree AND a flying license will give you an edge over someone who doesn't, right? don't argue my shallow statement, but MOST of us will think that it's cooler to have both, isn't it? =b

and luckily for me, at that time, this *ehem* company is offering me a place to pursue an engineering degree in its private university. i said to myself "this is an opportunity!". i will finish my degree first, then go to SIA!

apparently, that's not the case for me. 2009 was the suwey year for me. first, SIA stopped taking Malaysian cadets. second, MAS stopped its cadetship programme. third, MARA also rumoured to sponsor the last batch of pilot cadets in May 2009. fourth, i had a tumor as big as my fist inside my guts. fifth, i was dumped by my girlfriend. oh, lari topik plak lol.

and now, to pursue my ambition would be an uphill task. where can i find 275k to pay for the course? sure, banks can give out loans, but where can i find collateral for the loans?

and if i did manage to find the money, would i pass the Class I Medical Examination to qualify for the course with this 'thing' inside my perut?

sekarang? redha sajalah. mungkin itu bukan yang terbaik untukku. mana tau kalau bawak nanti, eksiden, mati ramai2. bek aku tayah bawak. tak apelah, jadik construction man pun takdelah susah sangat. berbakti kat negara jugak. buat landasan ketapi letrik tuh. bangga seh. hins.

dah tak larat aku pendam rasa. menangis dalam hati pasal benda-benda macam ni yang sangat-sngat menyakitkan hati yang semua jadik tahun ni jugak. apa boleh buat. no pain, no gain.



skang kumpul model sajalah. malam-malam, main sorang2 dlm bilik cam budak-budak. wiu wiu wiu. hahahahah. pathetic kan? tak apa. se pathetic aku pun, tak kacau orang. susah aku sorang. senang aku sher dgn mak ayah. sedih aku nangis sorang. ketawa, ramai2. kang orang kata gila plak ketawa sorang2.

sejujurnya, aku kecewa dengan diri sendiri sebenarnya. aku boleh pergi lebih jauh. dan mendapat yang lebih baik. nak buat macam mana. takdir sudah macam tu. otak geliga macam mana pun, kalau Allah cakap takleh pi mana, duduk situ sajalah.

grievances over dead dreams may shed the light on a better reality. - ni quote aku sendiri.

doa sajalah.