a rant post

be warned that this is a rant post.

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i warned you enough... so...



I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB
I HATE MY JOB

not just the regular 'i hate my job because its boring' or other lame 'hate my 9 to 5 job' rants you see in typical stupid blogs that don't know how to differentiate between 'responsibility' and 'work'.

It's just that I REALLY HATE MY JOB.

oh noes. i don't hate my job.

i just FUCKIN HATE MY STUPID LAZY-MORON ASS BOSS!

just terminate me, idiot. i won't lose my fucking life just because im terminated from your stupid company.

Bumiputra Kelas-A kontraktor my ass
satu kulim kenal my ass
wants to be like ahmad zhaki and IJM my ass



bullshit

there are reasons why so many people quits from your company, idiot. and one most profound reason is YOU.

now you can talk cock in front of us. someday someone will bash your lazy ass without mercy.

and it's your fault your company got terminated from the project. IN YOUR FACE, SCUM!

wait till my contract is over. i will bash your stupidity here. and i will tell the readers of my blog what knd of company you own.

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OK.

enough ranting. -back to job hunting-

celcom totally suck this week

i used to connect to the internet using my PDAphone as a modem. however, this phone will become scorching hot and its battery life is getting worse every day.

so i decided, its time to buy a dedicated 3g modem. and its kinda cheap right now, just over rm150, compared to rm399 months ago.

so i bought one last week, and happily plugged it in my PC. speed was good, at least comparable to my PDAphone, until last friday.

see for yourself:

wtf HSDPA with this kind of speed? not even 5KBps!

dear celcom. if you want to sell this kind of service, dont name it celcom broadband. name it celcom dialup or anything other than broadband/3G/HSDPA.

and this is not my 3g modem's fault as i tested my subscription with my PDAphone and it's just the same (<5kbps)

dont make me switch to winet or other providers. once i switch, i will never go back. and i will make sure everyone around me knows how bad your service is.

perihal gembira dan menggembirakan

"bang kalid! pagi ni saya lewat sikit. abah pakai muto. saya kena bawak keta. satgi mesti jem kat pekan BM"

"ha. ok. aku cover hang sat. hang jangan mengulaq pulak"

biasalah bawak keta. ayah pun satu. habaq la awai2 nk pakai muto. boleh kuar awal sikit. nek muto, buleh cilok2. keta? bulih tu bulih, tapi tak sehebat honda wave mencilok ar.

sampai site, capai topi, pakai safety vest, terus jumpak site supervisor.

"sorilah bang. tadi kluaq pun sayup dah. hari kita nak buat apa kat site?"

"kita perabih buang ikat besi. esok panggil consultant, lusa boleh tuang kongkrit. tu pun kalau tak ujan. aku rasa hari ni sampai lusa tak hujan, insya allah. cepat kerja kita"

bagus la jugak kalau boleh abeh kerja ni cepat-cepat. banyak sangat masalah. serba tak kena.

"hari ni depa tak kacau?" - depa: main contractor. kacau: ligan progress. main contractor ni selalu kejar2 kitorang.padahal site mmg problem. haruslah terlewat sikit. nak buat macam mana. bukan bulih tutup suis ujan ka, banjir ka.

"hari ni tak berapa kacau" jawab bang kalid. slow je. "janji site jalan."

"baguslah. takdelah tensen sangat nak menjawab" aku cuba berseloroh.

"tu lah. susah betoi nak puaskan hati depa ni. asrap, aku nak pesan kat hang. hang muda lagi kan? umoq berapa?"

"20 lebeh" pendek je aku jawab.

"muda lagi. banyak lagi masa. bujang lagi kan?"

angguk kecik. ahah. segan lah pulak. macam tgh dengar nasihat tok guru la plak.

"selagi hang boleh gembirakan diri hang sendiri, pi la buat benda2 yang hang suka. kalau hang suka mengai, p mengai. kalau hang suka jalan2, p jalan merata. kalau hang suka mandi sungai, pi mandi sungai"

"er. awat?" aku kompius. tiba2 suruh p wat menda2 merapu pasaipa nih. ish.

"umoq hang muda, hang hidup, hang tak payah pikiaq pasal orang lagi. hang dengan urusan hang. tak kisah la hang nk duk senang ka susah ka, makan megi hari-hari ka, duk rumah kongsi ka, tu hang punya pasai. tanggungjawab takdak lagi"

"ooo..." pura pura paham.

"hang pikiaq balik, bila hang tua, hang tak boleh dah pikiaq pasai hang sorang saja. bini hang. anak hang. mak pak mentua hang. adik hang.adik ipaq lagi. hang dah bertanggungjawab atas kegembiraan depa ni nanti"

"ouh."

"hang nampak honda civic baru aku tu?" dia menjuihkan mulut ke arah keretanya. baru sangat.plate PHY. hujung tahun lepas agaknya.

"terus terang kat hang, kereta ni bukan aku hingin sangat pun nak pakai. ikut aku, pakai ex5 sudah. tak payah pikiaq2 sevis la, jem tengah pekan la, instolmen bulan2 la. pening kepala. aku beli ni pun, sebab bini aku. malu lah kereta lama, kereta kecik. anak-anak pun sama jugak"

"oooouuhhhhh." panjang sikit oh aku. paham la aku sbb apa dia merungut.

orang lelaki, generally speaking, muda-muda, korang hidup, korang nk happy2, semua atas kehendak korang sendiri. duduk rumah sewa dengan member sampai 10 orang serumah pun boleh je.

tapi bila semakin tua, jadi tanggungjawab pulak menggembirakan orang lain. isteri, anak-anak. kereta rumah. macam-macam lagi. kita bukan hidup untuk diri sendiri. tapi hidup untuk orang lain. agaknya, sebab tulah bang kalid suruh aku buat apa yang aku nak buat puas2 sementara masih berkesempatan. jangan bazirkan masa muda.

kesimpulannya? toksah la pikiaq sangat pasai orang len. xde pekdahnya. bek pikir psl diri sendiri tu. hepi ke tak tuh.

do something meningful to your life. its your life. not theirs. luls.

just to make sure

ade sapa2 lagi yang lom tau dia recomended or not? pls leave comment here.

it sucks to know you are the only one still without the results.

as i anticipated

no one will read post less than 10 lines and more than 30 lines.

bwahhaha. better that way, since post panjang2 cover ngata orang je, sbb orang xbaca =D

and btw, i know the word 'rantings' doesnt exist. no need to tell me yah ;)

okay, so now im in the mood to advocate sexism.

just take a luls at this video:



dont blame me. blame the faggot in my class. you dont have to iterate to us how much capable women are to men in doing tough jobs laa. we know it, and your tomboy looks just proves it. and feminism sucks. as always.

yours truly,

indie? skin? underground?

ade yang tak puas hati aku cakap Bunkface tak best. Maaf, aku ada sebab sendiri. Bunkface tak cukup perisa indie lah. suara komersial sangat, bek masuk mainstream terus. ini adalah satu complement, ok? puas hati?

"saya suka indie. xmcm awk."

"bunkface best lah."

"ikut suka la nk suka pun"

sila2. aku tak pernah larang orang suka apa, tak suka apa. everyone is entitled to their own opinion.tapi jangan lah pulak terus judge seseorang daripada satu statement saja. bukannya kenal sehari dua bai.

dulu aku layan gak semua. indie, underground, skin, punk etc. black metal je tak sempat. sbb aku dah quit masa tu. duduk kat pekan teronoh, nak pegi gig mananya. aku dulu manade trenspot lol. lgpun penah dengar member aku kena pow ngan teksi masa g gig kat kl. terus aku trauma.

prana,muck,nice stupid playground, o@g, ACAB, The Skatalites, The Special, The Selecter, carburetor dung tah pape lagi la.

yang plg aku minat acab. tp dulu2 jelah. masa still genre derang skin rock. skrg? dah jadik The ACAB. wth. more indie than skin. dah tak bes. tah ke mana slogan "pegi mati sama polis" pun aku tak tau. tak apalah. hak diorg.

kenapa aku dah stop layan underground ni? bila aku dengar megat, vokalis acab tulih tatu kat dada "I LOVE MY MUM `n` curb AL-QURAN".

tambah pulak masa tu aku kener pencerahan agung geng2 tablig. hahahahah. terus stop mende2 duniawi nih.

so, kalo korang tak tau OAG tu asalnya dari perkataan Old Automatic Garbage tayah la ngaku indie sangat lol. ade org lg lama layan underground dari korg. dan ade yang layan underground lg lama dari aku. respek derang.

kalau rasanya layan underground kool, silakanlah. aku pun rasa kool tgk orang layan indie music ni sebenarnya. tapi lagi ramai orang poyo layan sebenanya. so adik adik sekalian, kalau baru sekali pegi gig tu bawak2 la belaja dengar lg bnyk muzik underground. sbb lg bnyk sampah dari yg best sebenanya underground ni. guna telinga dan otak. jgn semua benda nk headbang je.

dan jauhi dadah. luls.

btw aku baru perasan yg main trompet/nyanyi dalam gerhana ska cinta tu sebenarnye ex-acab. dalam acab dia ni main bass/backup vokal.

oh, dan skarang aku rasa bunkface best. entahlah. efek adik aku pasang lagu ni kuat2 hari2 kot. dem.

conclusion? entahlah. aku lg suka muzik skin dr indie band beser2 nih. luls. and btw indie nih bkn genre yah. semua band yg free dari record label nih can be called indie band.

kepada otai2 muzik underground sori yer kalau aku bagi fakta yang salah. dah lama aku tak layan underground scene nih. ampun maap dan tunjuk ajar dipinta :)

jgn cakap aku poyo underground plak. aku xnah ngaku aku kaki underground setakat layan2 beser beli keset join gig je. lebeh2 xder.

rant of the day

bunkface? situasi?

sorry. this band sucks. try again.

@home, bored to death

people say doing nothing for such a long time will shrink your brain.

exactly.

i really feel like my brain is just a bit bigger than a walnut. it became something lazy. lazy to think for me. lazy to memorise for me. lazy to decide for me.

does this count as brain dead?

well, looking at a positive light, i'm not really doing nothing. i did submit the replacement teacher application form just now. i did follow up with my Master's application in UTP this morning. and i drove my granny's sister to the hospital today. and i did go to a 'kenduri' as well. and at 6pm, i accompany my mum doing some shopping. oh, almost forgot that today i apply for celcom unlimited broadband.

nice eh?

so im kinda tired now. well, those things i did justify why my brain is lazy right now. its just tired. he2. and now im writing this blog pulak. pity him.

any how, ive written several times for this blog via my pdaphone, but when i post it, its just gone. pissed off, i decided not to rewrite it. or for that matter, i will never write my blog using the handset anymore.

darn it.

btw i never get tired of missing her. sigh. when are we going to see each other b?

so thats all for now, my update for this, er, week? laters

cleared

yes u read them right. my clearance form. my ultimate graduation proof. well, it may seem incomplete, but it's meant to be that way. both the exam n registration will only be certified once the result for this semester is out, in a month or so.

tomorrow i'll surrender my room's key to RC (residential college) office.

thus, i, Mohd Asyrafi Abd Halim, is officially an alumni of UTP and currently unemployed, now a liability to society, with all the subsidies and tax exemptions, medical fees, etc.

why bother? heck ive been studying for 10 years straight without a break (5yrs secondary school, and shortly after, 5 yrs of undergraduate). i dont mean study break, but a real break like really lepak2 and doing nothing to contribute to society. hahah.

kinda like it.

but i still miss her.

chow, gotta pack my things. going back home tomorrow =)

using my handphone...

this is a test post. im now using my pdaphone to create this post.kinda weird but i think i better get used to it.

i started playing SPORE last night and damn im already ketagih playing it.

pizza karaoke and a broken handset

just now went to pizza hut batu gajah with my roommate + housemate. ordered quite a lot of food. n then went for karaoke session. for us 1 hour of karaoke is more than enough lol.

btw i got a call from an amoi just now. its regarding my handset. she said the cost to repair is rm280 an it will take them 10 days to repair it. what the effing hell is that supposed to mean? u take 10 days to replace lcd of one stupid pdaphone? are they stupid or just plain lazy? i shouted angrily, trying to negotiate for earlier deadline for the phone, but to no avail. idont care about the cost, i just want my phone to be normal again!

anyone with disappointing set of dopod 838 pro (its a hermes btw)? care to share? where to find a decent repair shop in the northern part? or for that matters, an official retailer for this stpid phone im having in these areas? penang would be good enough.

i googled about this handset and found out that its touchscreen lcd is problematic. any experienced users care to share?

its 3am and i know its unusual to post an unusually long blog post at this time lol

just watched mr n mrs smith. hahahah. surprisingly this story is just like me n my gf. story of ego and hardheadedness. brutality in fights lol. but, when its sweet, only we know how sweet can it be. isnt it honey? :p

semester is ending. my undergraduate studies is ending. im counting days now. waiting for my clearance. turns out i still owe utp rm90 worth of fines. all three back in may 2007, even before my internship. and now have to wait for approval for fine reduction. for goodness sake rm 90 is worth more than a week's living cost here! i just hope i can get a reduction up to rm30-40

so this is it. might be my last post for my blog from utp (if i dont have the mood to write again these few days lol). here i want to dedicate some sayonara greetings to my some of special ones:

my one and only girlfriend, noor akmal:
thank you and sorry for everything, my girl. thanks for all the care. and letting me care for you. letting me share your problems whenever you need someone. letting me be a bad bf and still forgives me. and most importantly for letting me love you =)

i know our last days together in utp was certainly not the best times we had, but circumstances are not on our side, and i believe both of us understands it completely, though i must say im very disappointed =( if only i could turn back time b, if only i could.

i know we always had fights. over small things. and sometimes our fights are really hideous. well, most of the times. maybe that's our strength, really kan syg?

but remember the good times will you? those bunnies i sent to you every night. tha birthday song i sang to you on your birthday. my first present for you (the blue thing =) the kenduri with sedondon baju raya thing. the moment u gave me the bunny. the card u wrote to me spontaneously. and lastly, my next present for you. im sure ure going to be surprised. really2 surprised ;)

those are the things that really makes me miss you so much.

you are my baby. and will always be my baby =)

my beloved roommate, gaban:
i know this will sound gay, but he is certainly the best roommate i had. thank you for respecting my privacy. and though both of us never really talked to each other until recently, i still respect you.

tq sbb ajak makan. ajak g ipoh. bahan kimok sama2. usha jikku berkasih sayang bersama2. kena orbit pon sama2 hahah. sori sbb kincat ko pasal bazler eh. hahah. jgn amik siyes rumet. da 3 thn duk sama lol. pape pun best of luck yer rumet tersayang.

osmet kimok n jikku:
dulu jarang lepak sama. kos pon lain2. tp lepas intern selalu mkn sama. sori kimok bnyk bahan hang. takde lele, hang la mangsa. hahah jikku, cirit2 kasih sayang pon still xlupa osmet. cayalah asenel. hahah

bdk2 civil len:
thanx for these wonderful 4-5 years together. geng2 semsas. geng2 budu. geng2 lifuki n matle.dak2 pompuan yg siyesli aku tak kenal sgt pn b4 intern hahahah. x lupa ct haida. tengs for all the notes. i realy really really appreciate it syg (usop jgn marah haa =p) wish u guys all the best. nnt dah berkarier gaji 5figure jgn lupa member yer hehe

amy
tengs sbb jadik a very good girl friend. tq sbb not judgmental towards me. though i know u had this hostile thought of me, but i think even the meanest guy in this world would think twice, no, thrice, to do bad things to you simply because, well, you are too sweet. yeah i said it lol. you are sweet, not bajet sweet. hihi.

good luck in life. nnt nk buat nasik minyak jgn lupa jemput yer hahaha.

#helloproject:
ni cenel takleh lupa nih. the channel that lets me express myself without ppl being judgmental. thanx 4 everything. this is where i learn that virtual relations can be expressed in reality. thanx for all the maples and mekdis and kepsis.

n this is where i found my love too. hahaha.

gud lak everyone. yg blom grad tu semoga dapat score and secure a good job later

mazrep:
tq sbb jadik kwn yg bek. aku ade problem leh cite kat ko.

aku konpes aku x gay sekian.

mekaseh jadik rakan lepak aku masa kat klcc dulu. aku tau ak ni membosankan. dahla mulut laser xde insuran. tahan gak telinga ko tuh ye. agaknya dah bese kene tala ngan munir kot hahah.

kN:
tq for helping me hooking up with chunk. and well, for breaking us apart once =b i know u only think the best for both of us. and i know i was stupid at that time. well, i still think of you as a special friend. not far enough to be a stranger, and not close enough to be too personal to each other. thus the status lets us share our problems without guilt or feeling hostile.

#natto
frankly i dont know why i joined this channel in the first place. im from the 2nd generation. the time when yatie was still with ash. and mazrep, munir was still unheard of in this channel. i enjoyed each and every outings i have with u guys. thank you very much for pretty much everything =)

syncmaster
sori terhutang lama sikit duit mum. nk wat camne im in financial trouble and i know i was at fault.mayb i spent too much. bkn xmo baya utang, im trying my best. jgn sbb hutang putus kawan. aku tau ade lg baki hutang n believe me, im working on it.

and just in case youre wondering, i paid it using my own money. not hers ok.

freestylers
tq sbb bg aku peluang masuk circle korg. stat dr v2 lg. mekaseh sbb aja aku cane nk paham kecek klate. n ganu. hahah.

tq for the great bbq yesterday. it was awesome.

picisan
not much to say, tp tq jelah for the evening exercise kat padang v4 hahah

#linux
nice staying there, though i dont use linux regularly. even for the servers, i use BSD. haha. but it doesnt matter as long as we're in the *NIX family =b

dc++ team
tq for the bans, recommendations, help etc2x. i really appreciate it. its been a year since i take over this hub, and its been a great pleasure serving utp students

i guess thats all for now. utp will always be in my heart. and i ranked it as my number two, after kys for my favourite place =) thanx everyone around me. directly or indirectly involved in my life - pacik macik gad, pak ali, tokei2 kafe len, brader koept, akak kopet, semoga dapat baby comel nnt yer hehe, macik cleaner, brader itm ass, staf2 n lecerer.

bye bye utp. sayounara.

Bedul anak mak

Tidak dpt dinafikan bhw abdul adalah seorang anak mak.beliau dibesarkan dlm suasana kekeluargaan yg erat.pencapaian akademik beliau juga amat membanggakan.

Namun segalanya berubah ketika melangkah kaki ke universiti.beliau bkn lg seperti dahulu.tiada lg ms utk membuat panggilan telefon kepada ibunya.pulang ke rumah pun jarang2 sekali.jika bercuti, seboleh-bolehnya dia mahu tinggal di kolej kediaman.

kenapa ini berlaku?pdhal rumah beliau amat bes.hari2 mak beliau masak ayam goreng kegemaran beliau.sekali sekala merasa makan nasik beriyani.mungkin kebosanan duduk di rumah sepanjang hari.kalau di universiti boleh lah panjangkan kaki ke pusat bandar.xpon koman2 ke air terjun,pntai ataupn pusat2 perkelahan terdekat.

Bole juga berdeting dgn si dia hari2.itulah besnye mempunyai buah hati yg belaja sama2.

Suatu hari abdul merasakan kepentingan pulang ke rumah ibunya.dgn insaf dia pulang segera tnpa memberitahu ibunya akan niat murni beliau dgn hrpn dpt mmberi kejutan kepada kedua ibu bapanya.

Berbekalkan mp3 yg dipasang lagu berjudul Balik Kampung dendangan  allahyarham sudirman,beliau menaiki bas pulang ke kampungnya di Sungai Petani, Kedah.lagu tersebut tidak bukan untuk meniup semangat membara utk pulang ke kampung,sungguhpun ketika itu bukanlah hari raya.

Sesampainya di laman rumah,bedul terus berlari2 anak ke daun pintu.

"tok tok tok!" pintu diketuk tidak berjawab.

"tok tok tok! semekum!" ulang bedul lg.

berkali2 diulang perbuatan itu.namun hampa.

Adakah keluarganya telah berpindah?adakah beliau ditinggalkan sendiri?adakah berlaku musibah terhadap keluarganya?

Air mata ditahan,namun kelamaan menitis jua.jirannya, ali muncul tiba2 utk menenangkan beliau.

"sudahla bedol.yang dah p tu xyah dikenangkan lagi"

Semakin tebal penyesalan di hati bedul.semakin berjurai air matanya.

"mak abah adik hang p pekan.awat hang teriak ni?"

kawan kah kita? (kisah abdul dan ali)

Apa beza kawan, geng, member? Ada beza? xde beza.cuma kadang2 diorg bleh jadi bes.kadang2 xbes.kdg2 diorg carik kita.kdg2 kita carik diorg.kdg2 senang mtk pjm duit.kdg2 payah gak.

Ada plak jenis kwn yg xmcm kwn.bkn maksud sy kawan makan kwn.tp kawan yg kurang dikenali.kdg2 kawan atas kawan.bkn la pulak maksud sy kawan menunggang kawan ke kelas, tp kwn yg dikenali melalui kwn2.

Mereka yang boleh dikategorikan dlm golongan ini termasuklah mereka yg kita xtego lsg kalau beselisih.ataupon cuma senyum2 malu sbb lupa nama.kadang2 senyum kambing.konon nk sedekah.tp xingat nama.kan lg bek bg salam.dpt pahala.

Selalu spesis kwn mcm ni boleh didapati semasa melawat bilik member.kwn2 diorg akan turut sm melawat,jd pertukaran idea dan buah fikiran pn berlaku wpon kurg mengenali antara satu sama lain.dan apabila pulang,tidak pula berusaha utk menghubungi rakan2 tersebut.maka secara automatis,mereka menjadi kwn yg xmcm kwn.

Suatu hari ketika berjalan pulang dr menikmati hidangan tghr di cafe,abdul terserempak dgn ali, seorg kwn yg xmcm kwn.lalu dgn berani,beliau mengambil keputusan utk menyapa beliau.

50m.masih zon selamat.bedul masih boleh berpura2 tetinggal sesuatu dan mengambil jln yang lain utk mengelak drpd bertembung dgn ali.namun beliau tidak berputus asa.nekadnya hanya ingin menegur ali, sungguhpun dia xdpt mengingati nama beliau.

30m.

20m.

10m.

"oit!dr mn?"

"..."

Sumpah seranah bermaharajalela di hati abdul kerana sapaannya langsung tidak dibalas oleh ali.

Namun ali sedikit tidak rasa bersalah, kerana mungkin abdul menyapa org di belakang beliau, lantas beliau tidak mahu menanggung risiko malu buntut kerana perasan.

Sekian kisah sedih seorang abdul yg dilupakan kawan x mcm kawan.

great great time

last night was my drama class. yea i suck for taking drama for my co-cu this semester. there are much 'cooler' cocu i can take like sports science, etc2x, but since this co-cu subject already suck, i guess getting into this artsy thing is not a worst thing to do.

had a great time, actually, i must admit. it's been awhile since i last taken non-maths class. doing facial expressions while not having any emotions attached to it, priceless. I even scared the poop out of my classmate for my angry expression LOL.

however, this Drama Queen in our class really annoys me. She needs to learn that in order to get through the class, you have to keep the lecturer happy. her reluctancy to show facial expressions really annoys us all. it's not that i love this drama class. i hate it. totally. but i know i had to keep the instructor happy, so we can go home early, and happily. This Drama Queen keep saying i cant icant icant like its some kind of evil sin to do it.and that dragged the whole class down. damn it.

and yesterday, i just knew how it feels like after months and years of patience and waiting. and it pays back. it really feels good!. like you 0wn3d the world! tq darling... i will not waste my chances. not anymore :)

About a Taurean guy I am :D

About a Taurean guy I am :D

i got this from my friend's blog, payeh. and i find it rather amusing that this kinda describes me afterall.

A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will be quite straight, facial structure tends to be square shape more than other shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness.

physical. quite true. medium tall. strong with good health haha. im a bit bulky to be precise. not fat or muscular. i like this part: he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. this is so goddamn true man! somone did comment that i tend to do this, especially if i want clarification.

Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is sand in your palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold it still, it will stay that way. Don't set the rules and draw a line or him, he will not stay.

aha. yeah im a free, wild bird. quite true up to some point. but trust me, despite being kinda flirtatious, i am loyal guy ;)

When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone wrong, he will blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people.

the part 'If he up sets, he will show it right away' is not quite true. depends on who im with. i will if i feel comfortable with the said person.

He sincere to his friends even to some friends he does not like. He likes to do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself.

He does not care what people think when he behaves weird. He could be walking bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk vendor.

i like this part. i love surprises. and sometimes i behave weird, only to feel how is it like to be weird. and i never care about others' opinions. to hell with it haha.

He likes to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually learning about you till he fills up all his questions.

betul kan syg? hi2. i analyse ppl. when i converse, i do look at the simplest gestures. or facial features. and i can tell a fake smile to a genuine one. but don't worry, i only analyse, i dont judge.

He knows so many people, but he has a few friends. He looks for quality friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could create his own little world, and sometimes no one would understand him. He looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the
others.

i have many friends. close friends? one. or two. best friend? maybe one. u see, i have difficulties trusting people. i may seem to be friendly, but i do anayse people. but when i trusted someone, i fully trust them.

A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to let him be. He won't disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back.

He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and hate to force himself in competition. He may seem careless, but actually he is a thinker and a stubborn one.

this is a bit tricky. i'd rather keep my dreams to myself. im an engineering student, but i do have dreams to have other career, which i'll only tell to my closest friends.

He sees anything in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you as a friend, no one can say other wise to change that for he will not listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends.

hah! kan dah kata!

He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything. If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul.

id rather avoid answering than tell lies.
lies are of no good. period.

If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person.
He has to be curious about you. Hell for him is "No Freedom", so if he marries you then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be interesting, and then you could have him beside you.

:) now i hope u understand b hehe